Here, at last, was an answer he could give, and it surprised even him when it burst from between his lips. "Yes," he admitted rapidly, "of course you mean more to me than he does! He\'s a close friend, you\'re my... lover," he fumbled over the word, having not used it in so long. How strange, to be back in that position after centuries and centuries of abstinence - but he couldn\'t deny the way he wanted her, the rapturous yearning he\'d found when burying himself inside her body a few nights before.
Ben might hold his imagination and curiosity - not to mention be something pretty that he covetted as his own fan, stroking his ego as well as feeding his blood hunger - but Mandy had claimed his heart. Whether it had been the moment he\'d slid inside her or watching her body undulate beneath the strain of the lashes for him that had done it, he couldn\'t be sure, but he knew it to be true. "I love you," he told her earnestly, leaning in close so that he could look directly into her eyes, wishing he had the balls to kiss her but afraid she\'d push him away.
"In the sense of this trial and the suffering you\'ve both endured for me, I must hold you both in the same regard," he told her plaintively, reaching up to press the fingertips of his left hand to her cheek, the contact minimal but obvious due to the vast difference between his undead temperature and her infection-ravaged one. "But I can\'t find Ben yet. I\'ll keep looking, though, to see if I can do anything about his imprisonment. On a personal and intimacy level, however... you and he are vastly different."
He was in the mood to admit that he and Ben had shared a kiss but it hadn\'t been a passionate declaration or a lustful yearning, it had been a resolution and an answer to a curiosity he\'d held. Nothing like what he felt when Mandy\'s lips were pressed to his own. No, because of that fact, he was better off keeping that information to himself; she\'d only become more upset and increase her pain level for no real reason. He really did love her, so the protection impulse was strong.