He looked at her for a long moment, then sighed and tilted his head back to wonder at the rafters of her ceiling before meeting her gaze again.
"One mistake in my past has led me to make a mistake in my present," he began, then decided the story would best be told from the beginning. "I was young, Lam, you can do the arithmatic in your head well enough to know that it was long before you." He didn\'t confirm what she knew, in fact, it seemed he assumed she\'d heard. "I was young and foolish and didn\'t take as much care with my seed, so I fathered a babe who I discovered working as a serving wench in a low-life tavern."
He wondered if she would interrupt his story to comment on his slumming, but rather than give her a large pause, he continued quickly, so he could get it all out before she could say a word.
"I found myself a daughter, sired long ago. I took her in to undo the wrongs that she\'d had in her life to give her something right, by way of apologising for my absence and also to give her a life that my child should have.. I didn\'t know about her, you see, for fear of past... frivolities... catching up with me and making accusations, I tended to become unreachable. I cut her out of my life by removing ties with her mother."
He took a breath and gave Lam a warning look not to interrupt, whether it looked like she would or wouldn\'t.
"I showered her with gifts and education, buying her respect I suppose for all the time I hadn\'t shared with her. She didn\'t share the same vision of opportunity I had for her though, her upbringing fought my discipline - which was in the form of private tutors. She fell in love, apparently, with one of your guards, and stole from my safe as well as taking one of my horses to make good her escape." He smiled a bitter smile at Lam. "And so I find myself confessing an old sin to you. You, who I ignored in favour of trying to restore myself a family, only to be taken for and abandoned because she didn\'t want an education, she only wanted a fistful of my coin and a means to escape the castle with the first man to become her lover."
He waited for Lam to make comment, to either pass judgment on him or forgive him. As it was, he wasn\'t sure which would come and looked at her like he expected the former while hoping for the latter.