Ichabod stayed silent for a few moments as he gazed at Ben, not sure exactly what the vampire wanted. He knew Ichabod didn’t really want to be fed from, but when had that ever mattered? Swallowing, Ichabod squeezed his eyes shut and lowered his head. Ben was forcing words into his mouth, Ichabod liked the feeling of being fed from but not enough to ask Ben for it, not enough to put himself in a situation like this. This was completely different, Ben was forcing him to be the instigator and Ichabod hated it. It wasn’t even asking for permission, Ben was telling him to ask for it. Was this his punishment for not being more welcoming before?
He knew Ben was waiting for him to offer himself and his blood and although his voice had been calm Ichabod didn’t want to tempt the anger out of him.
“Ben…” Ichabod murmured, lifting his head, his eyes pleading as they met Ben’s. He really didn’t want to ask, but as he gazed up at him he knew he had no choice.
“Please feed from me, wherever you like,” he said, his voice wavering slightly as he spoke and a feeling a sense of dread growing in the pit of his stomach. If Ben choice his neck, which Ichabod knew he was likely to, (Why would he change this time just because Ichabod had asked?) then it would be like last time, with Ben getting him aroused, then leaving him, then that feeling of guilt again. He disliked that Ben could bring up so many contrasting feelings in him; fear, lust, anger, security. And Ben could change at any second as well if he just said the wrong thing. He just had to try to keep his head clear, not become overwhelmed and caught up in the actions again, but that was easier said than done.
Ichabod stood, taking a deep breath as he spread his hands out to the side openly.
“You want me? You’ve got me, completely. Please, do it.” It was true, Ben did have him. Mandy might have his heart but Ichabod was too afraid of Ben to do anything other than what he asked. Last time he’d found himself wanting Ben, now as he stood in front of him Ichabod wanted Ben to tell him what to do, just so that he knew how not to do anything wrong. Whilst Ben was here Ichabod wanted him telling him exactly what to do and how to act because he obviously wasn’t capable of keeping the blonde happy otherwise.