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It was well after 2am by the time Mandy finally returned home, defeated and utterly exhausted (both physically and emotionally). There was nothing more that could be taken from her. Her dignity, her confidence – all of it was gone, and now… so was her cat. She was a shell of her former self. A shadow of the bubbly, optimistic girl who used to exist.
And it had only taken a year and a half to sufficiently do her in.
The again, things
always appeared to be their worst when one was down as far as they believe they could go. Surely, the desperation she felt now, was nothing more than a combination of self-pity mixed with the hurt of (what she perceived to be), betrayal. Who she was, wasn`t
dead… they were just temporarily unavailable. At least, they were for now.
She packed in silence, only the barest of essentials. Socks, underwear, bras, a few reasonable outfits (and scrubs for work) and an extra pair of shoes. Her toiletries were gathered in a similar manner; the make-up bag easily brushed into a carry-on type duffle along with hair products, toothbrush and toothpaste and necessary medications. Twenty minutes after she had began – Mandy was done. All that remained now was the last few hours until morning (which were spent curled up in a ball on the couch as she couldn`t bring herself to lay with Ichabod in their bed). Once morning came – she would be able to call Barry and arrange a ride.
It was easily the longest few hours of her entire, mortal life.
Dawn arrived with little ceremony and as expected, her call to Barry was more than well received. He even offered to pick her up within the hour, believing her to be ‘wrongly evicted from the premises’ - Mandy not having the heart to tell him the truth about her and Ichabod parting ways. It was better he didn`t know anyway. She didn`t want him to think poorly of her, after all. And so it was; at 8:46am on Tuesday morning, Mandy stood halfhearted at her soon to be former-front door, suit case in one hand, her purse and carry-on in the other. This was goodbye, and she had initiated it… so why was it so damn
hard? Clearing her throat, she shouldered her purse and duffle – depositing her key on the shoe rack before glancing toward Ichabod (who looked as miserable as she currently felt).
Just be strong… “The number where I`ll be staying is on a ledger by the phone… in case you need anything or have any questions.” She explained, her entire body feeling numb and hallow - her voice not sounding at all like her own, “I intend to pay my portion of the rent until the lease is up, I`ll be sure to get it to you before the end of every month. Just keep me posted on if it goes up again – you know how the land lord is.”