…or I’ll kill you.
…or I’ll kill you.
It didn’t matter what came before that part, the end was always the same. Or I’ll kill you, and no one ever did.
Kale’s mind pulled in a million directions, and cracked like a piñata.
He could feel the human---demon?!---hands over his body. His clothing, for what it was worth, was being removed from him. The drugs in his system were numbing him, telling him it was all okay, alleviating his anxiety, and yet….yet it didn’t matter. It couldn’t override the pain, the physical or the psychological. What the fuck was happening? What the fuck had been happening, all this time; how did he get here? How did the world get to this moment… it made no sense. It wasn’t real, how could it be? Déjà vu to the highest degree…since when had the world become something out of a comic book? A cartoon? A sadistic-masochistic fucked up animation, imitation, exaggeration…
I do wish you were dead Kale’s mind decided I will never want you, don’t you get it? Don’t you see, I don’t even want me…
The water was hot. Even if it wasn’t. Kale felt so cold, down to his very inverted soul, that everything around him seemed aflame, on fire. He was in hell. He was burning. And he didn’t care. His body was limp. There was no resistance. Everything had snapped, every assumption, every rational thought, and every tie to reality. His rib was snapped, too, but even though he could barely breathe because of it he didn’t really notice the injury, only the disembodied pain. His arm was bleeding again, the bandage having been soaked through and rubbed loose against the shower wall.
Of shoes--and ships--and sealing-wax--
There were lips near his lips; he couldn’t see them, they were too close to focus on, but he could feel them against his own. He was naked, too, but that didn’t seem to mean anything anymore. He’d been naked for a long time, really. Truly. For ever and always.
Of cabbages--and kings--
And then there was no one touching him. He was standing along in the shower, wobbling, leaning against the hot shower wall under the hot water, neither of which was probably hot at all.
And why the sea is boiling hot—
And then the other was back, the warden of Kale’s hell, and Kale shrunk away backwards, sinking down into the tub of the shower before he knew what was happening. His body was shutting down, his brain having closed itself off to the world moments before.
And whether pigs have wings."
“kill me, I think” he mumbled, head sunk down and chin against his chest. A ball of naked human, partially cleaned, thin and bony, broken.
So not much of anything, really.