Without looking back, Rochelle opened the door wide enough to allow her to slide in and closed it behind her, as if a loud noise might offend the pregnant silence blanketing the room. Smoothing her skirts habitually, she took a breath and squared her shoulders before she lifted her gaze, steeling herself for what she was about to see.
It wasn\'t as bad as she\'d expected. Oil lamps filled the room with an even, muted glow, flattering the king with their soft orange hue. He looked slightly healthier for the colouring but even a coloured globe wouldn\'t have hidden the gaunt look of the man who now walked at a foreign God\'s side; his cheekbones stood out prominently, his eyes looked to have sunk rather deep into their sockets, his lips were rough and cracked from being wiped so often after coughing fits. He was dressed in his nightshirt, arms by his side and the covers drawn up to his armpits beneath them but none of that considerable amount of material could hide his diminished frame from not eating in so long, and bringing up what he managed to find the heart to swallow down.
The king now walked another plane but his entry into it had been wracked with pain that now clearly marked his corpse.
Taking a step farther into the room, Roche faltered slightly when the smells assaulted her nostrils. Though everything had been tidied, every surface wiped clean and all the furniture in the room replaced to its former polite distance, the scent of medicines and blood and phlegm and death lingered in the place. The reek of sickness, wet and hacking, lurked around the bed, offending her as she skirted it to go to her husband\'s side. That smell was revolting and she wanted to open a window so neither of them had to breathe it, but she wasn\'t game.
In any case, Hew had been standing here for ages now and possibly hadn\'t noticed it, so she wasn\'t going to draw attention to it. She\'d never known death had a scent and she hoped it would not be something she would have to experience again for a long, long time, but she feared it was now burned irrevocably upon her senses and her mind.
Gaining Hew\'s side, Roche slid her hand inside his once more and joined with him in staring at the king\'s body. She was closer now, could see more details; the bruising beneath his eyes, the broken veins in his face from coughing so hard they\'d ruptured. The last time she\'d seen him, he\'d summoned a smile for her, had indulged in the usual game of exchanging pleasantries, but there\'d been a haze of pain and longing in his eyes that she\'d found difficult to bear. The king had been tortured by the sickness that stole his life, it had inflicted hideous and excruciating pain upon him and she\'d never understood what he\'d done to deserve such a horrible end but she fancied that now, she felt his relief. His soul\'s relief. He was free from that bone-breaking cough, the breath-clogging phlegm, those eye-watering shivers that had caused his entire body to quake.
"He is at peace," she whispered and there was both wonder and gratitude in her voice. It was a terrible way to achieve peace but there was comfort in the fact that he had. Without thinking, she let go of Hew\'s hand and stepped forward, dropping to her knees beside the bed as she had as a child, performing her nightly prayers. Instead of simply steepling her own hands beneath her chin however, she took the king\'s hand between them, sandwiching the soft coldness of it between her own warm, life-filled palms as she closed her eyes and prayed.
Her mouth moved but no words were spoken as she beseeched her own God to look over the soul of her father in law, begged Jesus himself to take King Kestrel by the hand and guide him to Heaven, should the God of Death abandon his hapless soul as in a cruel joke - she had very little trust in one thusly named and likened him to the devil more than a God, quite frankly, but no such comment would ever be made by her to an Oberon resident. Instead, she prayed silently to her own celestial inhabitants that Morgan would receive just and honourable accompaniment into the afterlife, where he now belonged.
When she was done, she opened her eyes to find they were wet with her tears, though she was not sobbing and hadn\'t been aware she\'d even started crying. She was simply sad that such a man should be taken from her life in such a cruel and unfortunate way, before she truly got to know him. Standing, she replaced his hand reverently, sniffling back the snot that threatened to drop as she leaned over him and pressed her lips to his forehead. The back of her hand followed her lips upwards once the deed was done, warm, living flesh replacing the sensation of cold deadness stamped there, on her mouth. It had been like... kissing the skin of an orange. Cool, impersonal and very, very dead - distasteful in the extreme and not something she would ever wish on anyone.
Knowing that this memory and sensation would stay with her for a very long time, she turned to warn her husband against such an act. She wasn\'t sure why she was certain he hadn\'t yet performed such a deed - perhaps because of the way he\'d been lingering away from the bed when she\'d walked in - but she was and she didn\'t think he needed this burden to add to the rest of them. "Don\'t kiss him," she warned urgently, perhaps sounding unfeeling to say it like that, but she was too worried about stopping Hew from making the same mistake to think about how she sounded.