Normally Ransom did not venture outside of his crammed apartment room after the sun had sunk behind the hills. The evening was a time for unwinding and relaxation from the bundles of stress that the boy managed to accumulate in the span of a single day, as well as those underlying factors that had been exhausting him for years and years. Tonight, he had customer.
Well…maybe a customer. He reminded himself for the seventeenth time tonight. The mortal didn’t want his hopes that were rising slow and gradual like a hot air balloon to burst open, sending him from one minute heading to the skies and the next plummeting into the hardened ground. If he could prevent himself from building expectations, he figured he could save himself from the fall. The only problem was…no matter how many times he thought it, the boy couldn’t seem to convince himself. His nerves rose and subsided with his every inhale and exhale- and that’s just how his life was.
As he walked down the street that he had been on just yesterday morning, the boy looked as if it could have been the same day. His wardrobe was essentially the same shirt and pants cloned with a few variations and while tonight he was wearing a long sleeved knit underneath his hoodie versus a t-shirt he had been wearing the previous day, the article was zipped up so far that it would have been impossible to tell. The only indication that he hadn’t rolled out of bed in the same pair of clothes was the fresh scent emitting of them of laundry detergent. Being that he wore no cologne or body sprays, the fragrance was his defining feature.
If the sound of the cars on the street and chattering crowds passing by wasn\'t enough noise pollution, a variety of what if’s spun around in the mortal’s head to overwhelm him.
What if Isabella was joking? What if I do something wrong? What if the numbers I did are wrong again and… His attention was then drawn back to the manila folder in his hand- inside being a piece of computer paper that typed on it were the fees and payment agreements he had revised. Ransom had been a nervous wreck that day, going home to try to figure out how he could price higher without feeling
guilty about it. He had tried the mean guy persona on Isabellla and it really hadn’t worked. How could he go there with this number- five thousand dollars for the portrait- without feeling like a sort of insensitive demon?
Aside from the prices, there were other things that the boy should have been worrying about that were to be found on that paper. Ransom had been sure to run the grammar and spellcheck several times to be sure that his lack of education didn’t shine through and he seemed professional, but it had been words that were spelled correctly but used out of context or opposite of it’s meaning that he hadn’t caught wind of.
Arriving at the door now, the boy stood there hesitantly while replaying the instructions he had been given in his mind. Clearly the closed sign was on…and no one was supposed to be coming in. If someone was there, they’d be waiting for him…they’d know that he was here and why he was here and it would be fine. There was a swelling fear inside of him that somehow, no matter how illogical it seemed, he’d knock on the door and someone would answer and he would have gotten it all terribly wrong.
I don’t belong here . He thought as he turned his back to the door, looking across the street and then tilting his head from one side to the other, scanning the crowd.
If I just go home now, no one will notice. In fact, it was so tempting to walk away and not confront his anxiety head on that one of his feet took a step forward and the other froze midair, ready to take that plunge, before reasoning set in. Ransom could hear in almost a perfect echo the tone of voice that Ryker might talk to him in, if he had known this was happening.
“Don’t run away from this. You want this, remember? You should just get what you want Ransom. Relax.” In light of the internal dialogue, the boy turned on his heel to face the door, lifting his fist from the pocket of his jacket to knock on the door with his knuckles.
Bang. Bang. Bang. With that, he waited. It was now nine o’clock, on the dot.