Kerr's agitation was growing by the second.
An hour beforehand, he'd been happy - no,
ecstatic! - upstairs in his home with his two fledglings, the excitement of what was to come thrummng between them all. He'd been so glad that they'd had separate tailors and each developed their own costume for the ball, for the grand reveal (walking out of the rooms they'd been dressing in, at the same time) had been such fun! His darlings looked so handsome, his heart had just about burst with pride, the smile on his face almost painful in its extremity. Kisses, hugs and admiring compliments had flown between them, laughter and smiles the order of the night.
His own outfit was a slight mix of styles from his life time, since he'd hired someone who could make him exactly what he wanted. The most outstanding thing about it was the blonde, curled wig he sported, in an effort to conceal his identity - and his fledglings made a few remarks about it. It was a very good regency style hairdo with two rows of curls on either side of the head and a ponytail at the back and really didn't look all that good with his dark colouring, but once his
mask was on, it was better. His
outfit, overall, was quite simple. It consisted of simple leather shoes, white stockings and off-white silk breeches covering his muscular legs. Since he had no need for a fall front on his breeches (no longer requiring a toilet), they were just modern silk pants that ended with fancy ties at his knees - they were possibly a little
too tight at the groin, for he filled them out notably, and he worried that he should have gone for a narrow fall front after all to conceal his package a little better, but he hoped no-one would notice.
His torso was ensconced in numerous layers of material. The deep blue traditional double-breasted frock coat with long tails and a neat, high-standing stiff collar covered a heavily frilled shirt and a thick white and gold embroidered waistcoat. Back in the day, no gentleman would ever
dare reveal his shirtsleeves at such a formal event, but sensibilities had changed since the early eighteen hundreds and he wasn't sure he'd stick with the coat all night. The waistcoat was stitched with beautiful vertical stripes of gold and he'd attached a fob watch to it (the chain hung down below the waist of his coat as it should) so he wouldn't be averse to showing it off. There was a great deal of fancy knotting and tying to be found in the cravat at his throat and he held his head high from the moment he'd finished tying it, so as not to ruin the effect, but he could see that relaxing as the night wore on, too.
Despite the simplicity of his outfit, it suited his tall, broad frame admirably, the blue of his mask matching the coat perfectly, the trimming on it gold to go with the double row of buttons down his torso and the waistcoat snuggled beneath. He was very happy with the way he looked, smug about the fact that he'd got a wig to conceal his identity and that they'd arrive early - at seven fifteen - in order to be mingling quite anonymously by the time everyone arrived. The whole ball had been a push by Jake McCloud - after the success of a very recent dinner party with a fussy Russian ensemble of vampires, he was buoyed into wanting another chance to shine - so Kerr didn't feel that he had to host the event. If opening speeches and welcomes were to be given out, he fully expected they wouldn't be given by
him, he was here just to be a regular guest, to have fun and possibly match a few of the names he knew to faces he didn't. His aide had given him a rundown of everyone invited and their relative positions and situations in the city; some of them could be trouble and were certainly poised to cause such, so he was interested in meeting them informally, with them not knowing who he was.
The first blow had hit him around twenty past seven, before the party even started. He'd arrived at exactly the time he wanted, with Ben on one arm and Cub on the other, requesting that the Maitre'd not announce them. They'd swanned into the room and begun circulating immediately, their identities suspect due to their proximity perhaps, but his blonde wig and mask doing their job well. Unfortunately, it took only five minutes for him to be recognised, named and exclaimed over. Kerr's disappointment was rancid as he gritted his teeth and smiled through them, watching the ripple of recognition and identification travel around the room like a Chinese whisper on acid. There weren't enough early guests for it to be absorbed and by the time the next arrived and he was sought out in a manner that suggested he wanted respects to be paid to him, he knew his play at anonymity was dead before it even had a chance to breathe. He removed his wig and mask and bitterly ordered someone to take them up to his rooms, only to be stopped by Ben. His lover didn't agree that he should go unmasked at a masquerade ball, so Kerr conceded and put it back on (after running his fingers through his hair until Ben assured him he looked respectable), chagrined that his foolish dream had been shattered.
The second blow came as the party started to fill up. The guests started arriving on time, and then fashionably late, the beautiful hordes of supernaturals looking for an excuse to flutter and flounce in their finery swamping the room in droves. Kerr saw people he knew, people he wanted to talk to, but as more kindred arrived, a very peculiar sensation began to dawn upon him, weighing him down. It was the ancients. He knew that quite a few had been invited but the room had seemed so large during the planning phase that he hadn't thought their influence would bother him greatly. He'd been wrong. He could resist the desire to supplicate himself before them one on one, but when Odessa and Damien arrived together, Kerr had to fight valiantly not to go to them and get down on one knee. Gritting his teeth, he'd abruptly ended the conversation he'd been having (with someone) and reeled away from them, heading to the refreshment table and requesting three glasses of blood. He'd shifted from foot to foot until he got them, the waiter's face showing his surprise when Kerr drank all three and shared none with the men either side of him. Fortified by the amount of sustenance he took in, he was confident as he placed the empty glasses back on the tray held towards him - until another ancient brushed by.
Feeling a great deal like a steel ball bearing in a pinball game, Kerr shot off in the opposite direction, lips pressed grimly together and his eyes constantly moving in his head as he searched for pockets of space in the room, observed the faces of people nearby, trusting his instincts to direct him to somewhere where there were at least fewer ancients concentrated than in other areas. If he'd been mortal, sweat would have been pouring off him, but he was mindful to keep his pace swift, not panicked, his expression as smooth as possible, his head nodding at the greetings and smiles thrown at him as he walked by. It turned out that best place to stand was the worst in the room for a vampire; nearest the orchestra. Their music was beautiful but it could become grating up close, so those with the most exceptional hearing seemed to be politely skirting it. Staring out at the room, Kerr's agitation was only growing. He wanted to be out there, to be mingling, but the force of so many ancients in the one place was a palpable thing for him, a weight bearing him to the floor like a tonne of steel upon him and he was afraid that the feeling would become too much if any more turned up.
Catching the eye of his fledglings, he reached over and took one of their hands in each of his, doing his best to ignore the loud music, the oppressive feelings and smile wanly at them. "I don't know how much of this I'll be able to take," he told them truthfully, sending them both a sample of the reverence and intimidation he was feeling at being circled by those so much older than him.
They would find his fealty surprising and perhaps laugh at him, so he certainly couldn't afford to make his first impression on unknown ancients completely pathetic; he'd just have to let his progeny know what he was going through and hope they could help him by staying by his side and fending off any that came at him in numbers. Hopefully they'd be less likely to approach him so near the music. "Perhaps I should have come dressed as a rug and simply let them all walk over me as they entered, get it over and done with," he joked awkwardly, his gaze scanning the crowd. The blood he'd drunk
had helped him and, with distance, he could see how he'd be alright - he'd even be able to cope with one ancient at a time no problem... he just couldn't imagine that things would stay like this for long, or go so neatly to plan if he wasn't extremely cautious.
So much for having fun.