If it had been his own house, he would have slammed the door behind him. Fuck, if had been his own house, he would have shoved Nadia and her cunt of a sire out the door and then slammed the door in their faces. Yet even as he pulled out a cigarette to smoke, he knew that that wasn't at all true. If he had had his way, he would have pulled Nadia outside with him and told her what he had been trying to tell her all night.
Just before he had been so rudely toppled at the ball, he had been trying to find some time to be alone with Nadia to talk with her. Not to offend her, or criticize her, or even say anything about her fucking job which she had just blurted out in front of Damien, the only abstinent vampire in the entire fucking city, and probably the world. He had wanted a moment alone with her to apologize for being an asshole to her, to see how she was doing. When he had first seen her tonight, it was the first time in a long time he had seen her - nearly a hundred years or more. It was such a complete and utter surprise that he had every sort of emotion possible, and all of his old feelings that somehow she had managed to not only rekindle but set ablaze; the anger as well as the pleasure. He had imagined the night going on much differently than it had, with the two of them escaping from Odessa's mighty net of knowledge and Damien's over-watchful eye. He hadn't expected anything from her, only the hopes to catch up and trade numbers so that he could call upon her like he used to. He didn't nessecarily want to start fresh with her, but more to pick up where they had put everything down. While he had toyed around (and greatly enjoyed) the idea of a tryst with her, he had no intentions of starting anything again.
She had refused him once already and while he may have been a sucker, he wasn't an idiot. What hurt more than anything else was that look in her eyes that suggested things that had been, like she had been thinking about the same night they shared almost everything with each other, the same as he was. It was a look that pulled at something deep inside his gut that made him think that there was something else there besides the raw want for flesh. It was that look he hated and he both wanted to see every night of his eternity or he wanted to blind himself for so he would never have to see it in her again. But the worst part was that he wasn't sure if it was an illusion - his mind making him see what he wanted to see and not what was really there. He would only play a fool for her once, and he wasn't about to go rushing back to her on one knee and spill everything that he held back for the past few hundred years.
It was too ironic to him that as much as he had chastized Damien for still clinging to Lucretia after she had died, he was still stuck on Nadia in very much the same way. And the more she played with that, the more he hated her for it.
Scathing bitch.
The door clicked open behind him and out came his favorite red-head with a salty expression on her soft face. She ran her long fingers over his back as she came around him. By instinct he pulled her into his chest and clutched onto her, loving her. The pain in his stomach was so minute to him now and Jenella, who was there to comfort him, moved to avoid his pain instinctually. He let his cigarette burn in one hand as he held Jenella close to him, hating himself as he wished she was someone else.
He hadn't stopped Jenella as she left himself and Rachel - sitting on the same couch, he suddenly became aware of - to face Odessa and Nadia by themselves. There was an odd prickle in his skin, like he was very suddenly uncomfortable with the knowledge that Rachel was in the room. Her brown eyes were made-up and her clothes looked nice on her, despite her flowing awkward feeling. He couldn't blame her. If he didn't state it now, he might not get the chance to tell her again.
"Rachel," he said silently, caressing gently against her mind so as not to frighten her, but he assumed that the bushing response had been triggered by him nonetheless. "You can go upstairs if you'd like. I don't want you feeling uncomfortable in your own home." His eyes remained off of her and on the 'polite' conversation of the moment. All he could focus on was how he found a bit of satisfaction in Nadia's tight expression, though he couldn't figure out percisely why.
"Ah yes, I remember now. Odessa was nearly sent sprawling as well. Had Kerr been any older, he may have succeeded in knocking Odessa over! I know that I almost went for a tumble."