Sam was transfixed on the small dot of blood that remained perfectly beaded in Saraekiel's palm. No one was close to their table but she couldn't let him do this with him knowing the danger of what he was innocently offering to Sam. She closed his palm with her rough hands, the hands of a working woman. She gave him an apologetic look of shame as she directed his out stretched hand onto the table, she was silent for a moment as she held his hand. Saraekiel needed to know about the effects of something her brother Scott called a blood blond, they were still close. Even after the fiasco he made at the opening of Ventrue, idiot brother of hers.
"Saraekiel please do not take offense," her voice was very soft. "Blood sharing or bonding in my clan is something that is planned, it's an emotionally intimate experience. I am not rejecting your gift. I am stating that what you offer maybe more than what you are bargaining for in the future." She looked at Shae, her pleasure was duly noted and Sam felt as if she could give her a lesson in her clan and their ways of blood sharing. She had no clue if Shae would be delighted or sickened at the information Sam was about to give.
She looked deeply into his smoky grey eyes, "Blood bonding would give us a link to each other and I'm not sure you want that with me." She started off slowly, "In our blood we have traces of something called vitae, our essence if you will. The traces of vitae found in our blood will connect us and any emotions, or secret feelings, or desires, even are thoughts would no longer be private for you or me. It's difficult to break but the blood bond can weaken over time if we don't share blood. Not only that it's possible that you might get enthralled or overly fascinated with me over time." She averted her gaze from him for a second before she continued,"If your truly serious about this offer I cannot allow you to make it while flying blind." Sam was showing that she could be trust worthy, giving him a moment to think.
Her blood was a serious matter and if Saraekiel was still serious about his offer they would need more blood than just a pin prick in his palm. Then the waves of emotions hit her about Jake as she waited for Saraekiel's answer. Would Jake kill her? No. Would she be beaten? Yes. Would be watched like a hawk? Absolutely. Was she even considering the notion of this... yes, yes she was and that was the scary part. She lapsed into her own deep thoughts, still holding Saraekiel's soft hand in her own two rough hands.
She was impulsive and her rigid thinking was setting in for the first time in a few months, her thinking was she was different and always would be. Sam in the womb was bestowed a major flaw, her brain had fully developed but the lobes that made up the brain had been deformed, causing her to have multiple metal illnesses growing up. She was a horrible and angry child when she was a young mortal but that had subsided over much practice and beating back most of her impulses. Now she knew vampire was her species but that didn't dictate what her character was in this life. Jake was going to beat her for sure, she wasn't sure about the others in her family. Then again Sam would always be different, literally and just maybe she was also meant for a different path than she or Jake had envisioned for herself.