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Stray Sheep
« on: February 14, 2014, 03:44:36 PM »
Construction of the casino in the South District had been finished for some time now, but in recent months, the great machine had set into motion and practically ran itself. Vomas now had ample time to pursue unfinished business. He'd come to the Westward Apartments on a mission, and he'd dressed the part.
   
As always, the tall vampire was wearing a suit; it was tailored, immaculate, and a shade of grey that flattered. Atypically, he was without a tie and his crisp white shirt was unbuttoned at the neck. His hair was tousled, but the dark brown strands were arranged just so just so, and was held in place with forming cream. He'd wanted to appear casual, uncaring, but he'd given up after easily half an hour of fussing at the mirror.
   
He removed a hand from his jacket pocket and rapped his pale knuckles twice against the door, just beneath the peephole. The resulting sound was thunderous to his ears, but the occupant inside it would find it only loud enough to alert him to his visitor's presence. Vomas heard movement within and took a step back, so that he might stand a polite distance from the threshold.
   
His finely chiseled face was expressionless  - it was the sort of blank that only a statue made by an unimaginative sculptor could manage - but then his mouth and the skin around his eyes softened and lifted ever so slightly. The eyes themselves, however, remained hard and impenetrable.
   
And he waited.
   

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #1 on: February 14, 2014, 09:18:23 PM »
Vomas didn’t have to wait long, though Cain wasn’t expecting any visitors.  As soon as he heard the knock on the door he went to it, hoping it was David and also wishing it wasn’t.  He had to move on, since the other vampire certainly had.  The blonde had given him the courage to leave the donor list, instead of just thinking about it, and had inspired him to give up a life of pandering to vampires who didn’t care.

Of course he’d had a momentary lapse, what kind of addict didn’t?  It had been shameful and embarrassing and had made him feel a great deal more decisive about never slipping back into that role.
So imagine his surprise when he opened the door and found Vomas standing there; the vampire he’d pledged to, the one that had got him on the list in the first place after much pleading and had been loathe to let him go when the contract hadn’t properly terminated.

“Hi, Mister Vomas.  Come on in.”

As much as he didn’t want Vomas in his apartment, it would be disrespectful not to invite him.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #2 on: February 15, 2014, 08:39:45 AM »
He wasn't a vampire of myth, requiring an invitation to enter homes, but he'd waited for the prompt before stepping inside. While Cain closed the door behind him, Vomas gave what he could see of the apartment a cursory look and was taken aback by how tidy it was. It smelled of plants and cleaning chemicals, though faintly enough that didn't offend his sensitive nose. It was quite unlike Cain's prior apartment - the one he'd lived in before moving into the old Oligarchy Headquarters.

Once the door had shut and Cain faced him, he intended to give the human an equally quick once over, but his eyes lingered. The last he'd seen of Cain, parts of his hair had been dyed an unnatural color and he'd been dressed in some of the absurd getup that he'd often observed at Risk (though not so much at Venture, which was a decidedly more refined place to spend time). Now, he was dressed and groomed tastefully, so that one might admire his natural appearance.

"You look well," he said, approval warming his voice and expression.

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #3 on: February 15, 2014, 01:38:19 PM »
“Thank you,” Cain said automatically, though he didn’t agree with the appraisal.  He might look the part, but he wasn’t feeling it.  He knew he was more self-respecting now, but he still felt like he was dressing up.  This time he was playing a different role—but still a role nonetheless.  He hadn’t fooled David into thinking he was worth choosing over another, so he was just as transparent as he’d always been.

He didn’t know why Vomas was here but he didn’t think it would be favourable.  He doubted that it was just to pay him a compliment.  Of course the vampire wanted something from him, but what?  What could Cain possibly have to offer him?  Perhaps his silence, or perhaps information.

A thought struck him that David might’ve reported the vampire who’d given him trouble at Venture.  The club was in Vomas’ district.  Damn it, was he here to follow that up?  How humiliating.

“Would you like to sit down?” he asked, hoping Vomas would tell him he wouldn’t be here long.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #4 on: February 15, 2014, 02:38:05 PM »
"I would," Vomas responded, though he didn't do so immediately. He took a meandering path through the room, pausing intermittently to take in the sights. Limited as they were, the decorations were tasteful, and he made a small, appreciative noise in the back of his throat, then nodded to himself.

He finally lowered himself onto the couch, and noted that if he'd wanted, he would've been able to stretch out fully on it. "And you'd like to know why I'm here," he said, regarding Cain with a speculative eye.

His tongue darted out to wet his bottom lip and he took a breath like he would continue, but he hesitated. Cain didn't want him there - he'd plucked it directly the mortal's mind, but despite that, he was behaving in a respectful manner. He was composed, dignified, and they were traits that Vomas admired greatly but found rarely. Even Samuel, who he'd loved, had failed to meet his expectations in that regard.

The grand opening of Venture had been an utter disaster, though it might've turned out differently had Samuel not forced his hand behaving as he had. Regardless, he'd learned many valuable lessons that night: the first and foremost was that he couldn't afford being driven to distraction while swimming in a shark tank, and the second was that emotional, reckless Samuel would only ever be a liability to him.

Cain, on the other hand, might be molded and shaped into something useful.

"I came to offer you a job," he finally said. "Your old job, really, but with some revisions. I want you to be my donor."

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #5 on: February 15, 2014, 03:36:33 PM »
Cain followed Vomas to the couch but took the cushion that placed him furthest away from the vampire.  Vomas had always intimidated him and he'd never felt any warmth radiating from him.  His manner had always been perfunctory, even while drinking.  Cain found he didn't trust vampires who could emotionally detach themselves so cleanly.  It made him think of them as less humane--they would be the ones who might snap his neck without a second thought.  He'd always thought Vomas didn't care much for him really, so the job offer was a surprise.  The additional part attached to the job offer was a shock.

He pulled a few different expressions as his face imitated what his mind was going through, mostly surprise and confusion.  Eventually he settled on looking at Vomas with a troubled frown and a slight shake of the head in the negative.

"Sorry, I might be wrong but... it sounds like you want me to be your personal donor?"

He waited for Vomas to scoff at him, or say something snide.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #6 on: February 15, 2014, 04:16:05 PM »
"Well, yes," he said, blinking. "That's what I meant by my donor." He pulled a leg underneath him and swiveled his upper body so he could face Cain without twisting his neck. "I mean for it to be more than that, for I am in need of a..." his lips twisted to the side as he considered his next word. "... Companion. Someone to accompany me at events, act as my eyes and ears where I'm unable to."

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #7 on: February 15, 2014, 04:24:13 PM »
Cain was astonished and floundering for a response.  It occurred to him that he did have the option of turning Vomas down but was it a legitimate option?  Would 'no' be viable as a response to someone who ran a district?  Vomas was a very important vampire, so should he be flattered?  He did feel flattered, actually, but the setup still didn't feel right to him.

Vomas had never expressed an interest in him, sexually or otherwise.  Cain figured the vampire had only ever known his name because it had been an obligation to do so, because Cain was on the donor list--and Kerr had wanted him on there, which had made a fuss.

Kerr.  David.  Both failed attempts at having something real.  Maybe what Vomas was offering him was about as real as it got.  It was the best offer Cain had received so far, and something he'd wanted for a very long time... until he'd decided he no longer wanted that part of his life.

"Before I give this any further thought," he said to his hands in his lap, "I don't think I'm the right kind of companion for you.  I mean, you're sophisticated and I'm... not."
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #8 on: February 15, 2014, 04:42:53 PM »
He was surprised by the pang of sympathy he felt when Cain broke eye contact and looked down. Oh, he was all too familiar with that feeling of self-doubt, and it was something he'd had to face more recently than he would've liked.

"You're capable of learning," he said assuredly. "Sophistication is acquired through experience. It's only that you've not had that opportunity yet. I'm willing to give that to you, in exchange for your help."

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #9 on: February 15, 2014, 05:00:13 PM »
If he'd received this offer last year he would've been ecstatic.  Nothing would've stopped the smile from taking over his whole face, even though he had no real connection to Vomas he would've been over the moon that he'd attracted such an important vampire.

Right now, though, he still didn't know if he should accept Vomas' offer.  But hell, what else did he have?  His self respect, for one.  He was having trouble deciding.  A lot of him wanted to agree, to just be taken care of, to accept the opportunity and be grateful he'd been offered one, to finally be all that he'd wanted for himself only a short time ago.  A smaller nagging part of him reminded him that he'd given up this life.

If David had asked him though, to be his bit on the side - a donor and nothing more, he would've accepted.  So what was the difference?

Because it was Vomas.  And how the hell could he help?

"Do you mind if I ask, why me?" he said finally.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #10 on: February 15, 2014, 05:49:47 PM »
He inhaled deeply and released the air in a slow, deliberate sigh. It would've been easier if Cain had gone with the compulsive part that wanted to agree, but that wouldn't make him worth pursuing, would it? "You could have turned me away. Instead, you were polite - you invited me in. You wanted to find out what I wanted. You think before you do. You ask for clarification when you are in doubt."

Vomas tapped the side of his head. "You are careful. Even now, you wonder what I could possibly gain from you. You doubt my intentions." He lowered his hand. "In being my eyes and ears, I also gain your perspective. Despite what you might think, yours is valuable. You're familiar with vampires, with what drives us, yes? You can only have gained that knowledge by knowing how to behave around us. Can you see how that might benefit me?"


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« Reply #11 on: February 15, 2014, 06:09:18 PM »
"I guess I do," Cain said, and the words warmed him some of the way towards Vomas.  He didn't want to be cynical, and he didn't think he was feeling negatively about Vomas' proposal, but he was certainly uncomfortable with the amount of mind-reading that was going on.  The vampire was throwing it in his face, so he wasn't being sly about it.  The problem was that Cain knew he would have no secrets from this vampire, that he would always be tiptoeing around him (even though he'd been told that his character was what impressed).  He would also have to be kept in the dark about Vomas' motives, but it wasn't like he would want to know anyway.

He saw himself more as a liability to this vampire; that he could be used against Vomas by vampires who wanted something from him.  And then it occurred to him that Vomas wanted him because he was the perfect expendable donor.  If something happened to him, then it would be an inconvenience, nothing more.

But really, was he expecting anything else?  He'd always known it in the back of his mind.

"I don't know what you have in mind for me, exactly, but I'm sure you've already given it a lot of thought," Cain said carefully.  Considering the kind of position Vomas was in, Cain doubted he could think of anything Vomas hadn't already thought of ten steps ago.  "When you say personal donor, do you also want sex, or will it be like it was before?"

He had mixed feelings about both responses.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #12 on: February 16, 2014, 01:13:17 PM »
Like it was before? He thought about that. Humans usually fell into two groups when they were gently fed from: either they entered a drug-like stupor, or they rubbed against you like a cat in heat. Cain was a card holding member of the latter group.

Before, when he'd fed from the human, he'd kept him at arm's length - literally - choosing to feed from his wrist rather than his neck. It was less intimate... safer. In Vomas' mind, Cain had belonged to Kerr, even if he never declared it formally. After all, the former Luminary had all but forced him to bring him on as a donor, despite it being well past enrollment. And so he'd steered clear out of respect.

But Kerr was gone.

"No, not like before," he decided. "Unless you object." Despite what Cain believed him capable of, he couldn't detach himself enough to essentially force himself on someone; it wasn't like a human in that position could control their reaction to the bite, after all.

If Cain didn't want sex to be part of their arrangement, it wouldn't be.

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« Reply #13 on: February 16, 2014, 08:03:34 PM »
Cain thought he understood, as Vomas struggled to respond in a dignified manner.  Guess Cain had managed to put him on the spot.  Only someone who'd seen the usually stiff and proper Vomas quite often would've picked up on the hesitation... and Cain thought he'd seen it.  So he thought he understood now, what Vomas really wanted.

A pet.

So politically correct, to refer to Cain as a 'personal donor'.  If sex wasn't out of the equation, then the role was closer to being more than just a human assistant who sometimes gave a bit of blood.  It didn't even occur to Cain to refuse.  If this was the proposition Vomas wanted, then Cain believed it to be all or nothing.

"Are you wanting an answer now?"

Not that Cain was agreeing just yet, but he wanted all of Vomas' cards on the table.  The guy was good looking but he wasn't very forthcoming with his emotions.  Cain saw that he'd have to ask lots of questions at the start, until they developed a routine.  He also wasn't sure if he wanted to have sex with him yet.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #14 on: February 17, 2014, 12:37:25 PM »
Again, he took a moment to consider the question before responding. Vomas suspected if he rushed Cain, he would dig his heels in and deny him. But if he let him mull for too long, there was a possibility he'd talk himself out of it. If he'd known the human better, he'd know exactly what to say to convince him... or if he was willing to Dominate him...

It was tempting. All it would take was a little mental push. Cain would never notice, and even if he did, he could-

No. He could justify coercing someone who was a threat to him or his district, but this was different. He needed to earn trust, not plant it in Cain's head. Barely containing a sigh, he turned away from the human to share a brief look of annoyance with the wall.

"I would prefer that, but I understand if you need time. It isn't a small thing I'm asking of you." There was a pensive tilt to his mouth when he turned back to Cain. "Have you been to Beacon Towers since its completion? Perhaps seeing it would help you make a decision."

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« Reply #15 on: February 17, 2014, 05:06:44 PM »
Cain didn't know whether to be amused or offended at the suggestion how nice Vomas' building was would help decide him, though it did bring up the thought of interacting with the other donors.  None of them had liked him, and he'd been threatened quite viciously by a couple of them.  If he was in a position superior to their own and then had to socialise with them, he didn't foresee a good result.  His life had already been threatened once, did he really need to go back and find out if Toby really meant it?

"I wouldn't feel safe at the Towers, to be honest.  A couple of guys on the donor list frighten me."

He wasn't too macho to admit they'd stuck fear in him.  Living in a bad neighbourhood had been better than living in a plushie hotel.  It was the kind of people that surrounded you, really.  The folks where Cain used to live were just poor, and there were a few gangs around but he'd stayed out of their way.  They also feared getting caught because they didn't have connections.  Guys like Toby, with his family money and his yuppie friends and his seething hatred for Cain's favouritism by Kerr... he didn't trust him.

"I guess you could terminate their contracts, if you really wanted me.  I mean, that would prove to me that I'm really worth something to you, rather than how nice my room would be."

He was both proud of and aghast by the way he was talking to Vomas.  It was disrespectful, he thought, but it was also the truth.  If he was smarter with language he probably could've phrased himself a bit better, but there it was.  He hoped Vomas would value the truth over being manipulated into firing a couple of someones off his staff.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #16 on: February 18, 2014, 09:21:09 AM »
Vomas' eyebrows shot up as Cain made his proposal. He did appreciate the human's forthrightness (it was a very welcome change after having dealt with Samuel's exhausting passive aggressive tactics), but it didn't change the bind Cain was putting him in. The casino was far more popular with his kind than he'd ever dreamed, and all the donors he'd renewed contracts with when the Oligarchy dissolved were already being used back-to-back. They weren't so strapped yet that they'd had to deny a client a live source of blood, but losing two donors would put them in that exact position.

Not to mention that terminating a contract meant paying out a ridiculous sum of money, and then there would be the fallout of exchanging two who were well-liked among their peers for one who - as Cain had admitted to himself - was not.

It was a well-designed test, and he doubted he could have come up with better himself.

He shook his head in a resigned fashion, though amusement glimmered in his eyes. "Very well," he said, "but under one condition: You'll assist me with finding replacements."

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« Reply #17 on: February 18, 2014, 08:19:04 PM »
Cain was surprised by Vomas' quick agreement (if a pensive extended silence could be considered 'quick'), though he didn't miss the expressions that flitted across the vampire's face.  He wasn't so well versed with Vomas' personally to understand exactly what they were, but because the vampire's words had been positive, he thought in hindsight he could've interpreted at least one of them as wariness.

"I can come up with some names but I don't know that they'll meet your standard.  I mean, they won't be the kind of people that they're replacing.  Those types are out of my..."

league

...uh, reach."  He shrugged, just to drive the point home.


Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #18 on: February 19, 2014, 10:16:59 AM »
He waved a dismissive hand. "No matter. There's a place I've heard of filled with 'those types' that we could pay a visit to."

Plenty of ideal specimens were being hoarded in the VIP section at Venture, but he'd rather go into Dark Angel territory than ask the Sacramentum for a favor. Fear had pushed him into negotiations with the exclusive clan of vampires, but now that he'd secured his position as District Leader, he realized just how shortsighted his decision had been.

 The time he'd spent brushing shoulders with them at the grand opening had... well, it'd opened his eyes to the reality of his situation. In exchange for helping him, all he had to do was some scraping, a bit of groveling and a lot of rolling over and taking it like a good boy. It was exactly the sort of thing he'd escaped when his position as an Oligarch had ended, and he'd rushed back to it with open arms.

Vomas made himself stop his mental self-abuse and focus on Cain, careful that his expression only revealed the interest he had in the human. Only seconds had passed since he last spoke - as much practice as he'd gotten berating himself for his recent failures had made it a quick process, indeed. 

"Am I wrong to think that in discussing future plans with me, you intend to accept my offer?" he asked hopefully.

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« Reply #19 on: February 19, 2014, 08:09:41 PM »
Cain was nodding out of polite interest, but as soon as he realised what he was being asked, he stopped nodding and blinked rapidly a few times while straightening in his seat.  Did he intend to accept Vomas' offer?

Since Vomas had been so direct with Cain, even after he'd been rude enough to make a demand of the vampire, he thought he may discuss his concerns openly.  Toby and his threats of violence were just half the problem.  He was also aware that if David was still interested in him and hadn't moved on with someone else, that there was a chance he would've left Vomas standing at the door.  A very slim, minute chance, but love gave strength in unexpected places.  Rejection made him more vulnerable, and he had to be careful not to rush ahead and sign up for something he'd only regret a few nights later, once he was locked in.

He had no idea he was shadowing Vomas' regretful thoughts, mirroring the vampire's hindsight with his own foresight of a similar situation.

"I don't know.  It feels like a step backward even though it's what I always wanted.  To be someone's... uh, personal donor," he said carefully, thinking Vomas might be offended by the word 'pet' so Cain thought it wiser just to mimic the same language.  "I'm in a different stage in life now, and I kind of have... uh..."

Nothing.  He had nothing.  He had no hobbies, nothing was really calling for his attention to become an interest, even his brand new motard had lost its shiny appeal.  He loved it, truly, because he'd never had nice things and now he was surrounded by them, but something was obviously missing.

"I'm lost.  I'm no longer a part of the vampire scene.  I don't miss it, but I haven't replaced it with anything.  I'm seriously thinking about your offer not because being someone's pet was an earlier goal of mine," he said, not realising he'd slipped into old language with his 'pet' comment, "but because you're implying there's more to it."

And if Vomas told him that there was more to it, that there was likely to be a lot more to it, and it might even be messy, Cain thought he would give a positive answer tonight.

Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #20 on: February 20, 2014, 01:40:34 PM »
Vomas frowned at Cain, shaking his head. "Not a pet. A pet is caged, only taken out on a leash. No, I don't want a pet. I want someone who..." 

shares my enjoyment of learning
savors finding out why
doesn't hesitate to ask questions
relishes the answer even if it means they're wrong
is honest about their desires and needs
I can teach to not embarrass me at public events
understands my devotion to the city
finds pleasure in my company, as well as their own

but he couldn't say all that, not without looking hopelessly desperate. As if offering to pay someone to spend time with him didn't accomplish that neatly enough.

He pinched the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger, then pushed the pads of the same fingers over his eyebrows and up into his hairline. His mask had slipped, and even if Cain didn't know him all that well yet, he would likely see that Vomas was frustrated. He stood abruptly and with the grace typical of his species, stalked over to a window that during the day, would offer nourishment to the potted plant on its sill. At first, he stared at it sightlessly as he struggled for words, and only as he settled on a few key points did the plant's vines and small heart shaped leaves swim into focus.   

"I originally came here to offer you your old job, but that was it," he admitted. "We needed donors and I thought I might be able to convince you to rejoin the ranks. I never would've considered kicking two people from my roster to satisfy you. I might've compelled you to join and kept them on. I don't know. I never found out, because you were different than I remembered. You're not part of the vampire scene anymore, I suppose it's funny that it's the reason I want you now."

He faced Cain then, the small smile that had formed already waning as he moved back to more serious things.

"I wasn't able to dismiss you as I had before. So I saw a young man who promises to grow into something magnificent, given the chance. I can give you that chance, if you let me." Vomas held up a finger in warning. "But don't think it means it wouldn't be of mutual benefit. I happen to enjoy teaching capable students, and as I mentioned before, I am in need of companionship."

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« Reply #21 on: February 20, 2014, 03:43:44 PM »
If Cain had a better vocabulary, he would've had a particular thought at a particular time as Vomas conversed with him.  When Cain was told that he couldn't be dismissed because he was no longer part of the vampire scene, and therefore more worthy, he would've thought 'and therein lies the problem'.  He would've been amused at the irony, that his value to a vampire had raised as soon as he was no longer available to said vampire.  Instead, he thought 'typical', and instead of pondering the irony he was frustrated with the catch-22 instead.

He seemed to be shadowing Vomas' emotions a great deal, unconsciously.

He waited for a moment, to see if Vomas was going to add anything else.  When it became apparent that the stormy faced vampire wasn't going to say anything else, Cain replied.

"Nobody stops growing, or changing," he said softly.  "I mean, you make it sound like you're all done and finished and that I'm the only one who needs teaching.  Refining, I guess, and I do need refining.  It'd be nice to know which fork to use at the dinner table and that.  Um, not that we'd have dinner, but you know."

What the hell was he talking about?

"But you said I could help you, and I guess you mean more than just someone to run around in the daytime for you.  Unless you need a mouthpiece, and I'm not very good at memorising stuff to recite.  I wouldn't be good as a companion that way.  But, you talk about promise, and I'd like to make something of myself, and I think I can help you learn about, you know... empathy.  For humans.  If you want."

Geez, that could've sounded a lot smoother.

"I always feel worthless, when I'm around you."

He wished he'd stopped talking before embellishing his bizarre speech with that particular cherry on top.

"That's me, not you, right?"

For fuck's sake, shut the fuck up!  He pressed his lips together so tightly that there was only a slash for his mouth.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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Re: Stray Sheep
« Reply #22 on: February 21, 2014, 09:27:53 AM »
Help him learn about empathy? He made a scoffing noise, and prepared to give an example of a time he'd empathized with another, but he couldn't. He could recognize emotions in others, but he'd always struggled identifying why they might be a valid thing for someone to experience.

Okay, so he wasn't emphatic, but why should he be? And why would he want to empathize with humans, who were far more volatile than longer lived species? It would be exhausting to keep up with their ever changing feelings. Pah. Empathy. Sounded like a weakness, when it came down to it, not a strength that he lacked.

Because he was still tapped into Cain's mind, observing his thoughts as they flitted by, he perceived dark tendrils winding their way towards him. Rather than sidestep them as he normally would, Vomas gathered one of the threads into himself, tasting the fibers of it. He only half-heard Cain say he made him feel worthless, but he felt the emotion its entirety. And for a moment, he too felt like he was nothing, no good, of no use, insignificant.

Vomas frowned. "What do I do to make you feel worthless? I don't exactly go out of my way to."

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« Reply #23 on: February 21, 2014, 10:32:44 AM »
He was relieved that Vomas took his words seriously, regardless of how shoddily they'd come out.

"No, I know," he agreed, because Vomas had never actively browbeaten or insulted him.  "But you have just told me you used to dismiss me.  I wasn't immune to it.  I mean, I could tell," he explained.  He thought this was a good step towards them working towards a potential partnership together.  If he couldn't communicate with Vomas now, there would just be more problems later, if he decided to accept the offer.

He was leaning towards it, he realised.  He wanted to be useful, he wanted to have something to do, and he wanted to be important to a vampire.  He missed that part of his old life--the bite, the indulgence.

The sex.
Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #24 on: February 21, 2014, 12:34:39 PM »
He looked tired, suddenly, and sighed. It hadn't been his intent, but he'd successfully made Cain feel like a ball of shit some beetle took upon itself to roll with it wherever it went. Since he specified teaching him empathy towards humans, it made him wonder if it was why all the donors and other crew at the hotel gave him a wide berth. He'd chalked it up to intimidation, but perhaps it was more (less?) than that.

Vomas returned to the couch and sank into it. "I see," he said quietly. "Empathy, then. I've spent a very long time pointedly avoiding feeling what others do, and you want to teach me?" He raised an inquiring eyebrow at Cain. Are you sure you're up to that? it asked.

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« Reply #25 on: February 21, 2014, 12:43:44 PM »
"I dunno," Cain said, feeling like he'd gone about this all wrong.  He was also stunned by how much weight Vomas was putting into his words.  Cain was speaking in a way he never used to before, in a way that David had given him courage to.  It ran deeper though, it was the standard he'd set for himself now.  He wondered if he would still achieve the same level of self-respect if David had remained with him, or if he'd agreed to keep Cain on the side like he'd been offered.

It was hurtful, to be rejected so completely, but it was also better this way, because it meant Cain could move on.

But... with Vomas?

"There's not much I know," Cain said.  It wasn't self-depracating, or even an apology... he knew that everything he had an understanding of was of little value to Vomas.  The best he could offer was his amenable manner, and mostly the way he interacted with vampires.

Vampires, not other people.  Vampires seemed to have a thing for him, but it was almost always shallow.  It would be nice to mean more.

"So what kind of sex are you into?  I mean, I'm not into pain or anything but I'm pretty open about stuff."
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Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #26 on: February 21, 2014, 01:44:03 PM »
Vomas stared at Cain unblinkingly, though mentally he was reeling at the sudden change of subject. He supposed it was a legitimate question to ask, given that he'd suggested it'd be part of their arrangement, but it was difficult to maintain a sense of decorum when the topic of intimacy was broached so... crassly.

"I don't know, exactly. It's not something I've taken the time to compile a list of." There was a hint of a smile playing at his lips when he added, "Perhaps you can assist me with that, too?"   

He thought he'd recovered smoothly, but anticipated Cain was more than capable of challenging him again.

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« Reply #27 on: February 21, 2014, 01:49:57 PM »
He knew he'd been fielded, and successfully too.  It was both inspiring and frustrating, that Vomas could side-step so neatly.  Cain wished he could present in a better way, but he also enjoyed being direct.  It was easier than wordplay, which could get tiring.  If Vomas wanted a verbal sparring partner, then Cain was entirely the wrong person for the job.

"Why not tell me?  You can't be embarrassed, you've been around a lot longer than I have, and you want me in your bed, so why not talk about it?  Do you like being mysterious?"
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Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #28 on: February 21, 2014, 01:59:09 PM »
"No, I don't like being mysterious," he ground out. "And just because I've been around a long time doesn't mean I enjoy talking about sex so frankly. I enjoy hints, flirtations, teasing. Do you like being obvious?"

He settled into a deep scowl. He'd wanted someone forthright, and it appeared he'd been successful in that, at least.

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« Reply #29 on: February 21, 2014, 02:10:06 PM »
Cain met Vomas' gaze for a long moment as he considered the question before dropping his gaze.  When next he spoke, it was to the floor.

"I like knowing my place."

He wasn't sure if it was something he should be proud of or ashamed to admit.  When Vomas didn't immediately say anything, he continued with barely a pause.

"It's easier and safer, for someone like me in your world.  I don't mince words, I guess, because I'm not very good with them.  I never finished school and I lost my apprenticeship, which is why I came to be a donor.  Keep myself alive.  If I wasn't so direct, I wouldn't be alive.  And I wouldn't be me."

He looked coyly at Vomas after admitting this, and added:  "I don't know that I can satisfy you, anyway.  I feel like I could do a good job, because I'm no quivering virgin, but I don't think I have the kind of skills or ... whatever it is that would work for you."
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Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #30 on: February 21, 2014, 02:30:33 PM »
Like a balloon slowly being deflated, his face relaxed as Cain spoke. Which... proved the human's point quite succinctly. Toying with a vampire could mean his death. Speaking plainly? Apparently even he wasn't immune to the tactic.

"You're warm, and I'm very cold, you see. I really don't require anything too adventurous, though I'm certainly not against the idea."

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« Reply #31 on: February 21, 2014, 03:15:41 PM »
It was as they were discussing it that Cain realised he didn't want to sleep with Vomas.  He didn't want to find out what turned the guy on.  The idea of warming up that cool exterior made him feel gristly and smudged.  He managed a tight smile for Vomas and turned his face away, not wanting his face to reveal anything beyond what his mind already was.  If Vomas was dipping into his thoughts, he would know that Cain was uncomfortable with the idea.

"So what about the rest of the stuff?" he asked half-heartedly, wanting to change the topic.  "What kind of tasks will I be given when I'm not giving you blood?"

He thought maybe some kind of diplomat, but that would be laughable.
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Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #32 on: February 21, 2014, 05:37:56 PM »
This change of subject was welcome, so he was able to switch gears seamlessly. "I need someone to accompany me to events where it's expected I'd bring a guest. Once we're there, you'd be able to move freely in circles I can't. Used to, when people didn't know what my face looked like, I could do it myself. As an Oligarch, believe it or not, I blended in. I might've been able to continue doing so if I'd just become a District Leader, but I brought a lot of attention to myself with building the casino. Especially with as successful as it's been."

He thought of all the times he'd cornered someone with a camera, wiping away memory of his face and confiscating film - and later deleting images directly. Now, things were a little more complicated since every phone had a camera and everyone was a photographer. He'd been able to restrict their usage in the game rooms at The Towers, but beyond that, things were out of his control.

"I figure I can hitch a ride in your head while we're there," he continued, "else get feedback once things are over. Like I said, I need your eyes and ears and want your perspective."

He'd folded his hands neatly in his lap, but as he spoke he ran his fingers over his knuckles idly, contemplatively. "I want to spend time teaching you too. I'd start out with the education you didn't get the chance to finish, and we'd branch out from there. Follow your interests. Beyond that-" he shrugged. "Nothing's set in stone."

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« Reply #33 on: February 21, 2014, 08:29:56 PM »
Cain realised he was being pitched to, that Vomas had a great deal for him and don't answer yet, just look at this extra set of steak knives.  He felt a mixture of emotions; amused, bewildered and flattered to scratch the surface.  There was also a feeling of standing at a precipice, that he could either reject Vomas and go back to what he was doing, or jump into the unknown.  It wouldn't be entirely unknown, it would be like a pet with benefits.

Pet with benefits, that was a good one.  He chuckled at his own thought and sobered at Vomas' expression.

"For someone who didn't come prepared, you sound like you've thought about it a lot," Cain pointed out, but he was stalling.  He wondered if Vomas knew he was stalling.  The vampire before him was a successful businessman, a high-ranking politician and been around for an unknown number of centuries.  By the talk he'd overheard or been told while working the club scene, Cain knew that Vomas was well-established but only a little older than the 'century' vampires in the city.  He'd gleaned that the other vampires both respected and resented him for this.  It was hard to know what they define as 'a little older' than a hundred years.  A hundred and twenty?  Two hundred?  Not yet five hundred?

Cain didn't care how old he was.  He was a powerful vampire, and he understood negotiation, and Cain had stalled long enough.

"Alright," he agreed before even realising he was going to.  I'll do whatever you want me to, he almost said, but stopped himself by pressing his lips shut tightly.

Thank fuck for small mercys.

Digital: I drink from the poison chalice
Lan Bao: I reap the harvest of my people
Cain: I am the instrument that vampires play
Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #34 on: February 22, 2014, 04:33:30 PM »
There was a flash of teeth and lines appeared on his face that told of happier times (or an easier to please Vomas). His smile was brief, but it was wide. Although in the grand scheme of things, Cain's answer hadn't taken him very long to capture, he'd made it challenging enough that he was pleased by his victory. Or was it Cain's victory?

In exchange for blood and time, Cain would receive wages, a lavish room, wardrobe, an education and a chance to mingle among the upper crust of vampire society. The human had certainly made out well, comparably. Still. Vomas suspected the payoff for him, in the end, might be greater than all that. Even if it wasn't, it gave him something to focus on other than business as usual. He wondered how Cain would react if he told him he was his newest hobby. Until he had some things in signing, he wouldn't risk finding out.

"Alright," he repeated, nodding. "I'd like to get things in order as soon as possible. Do you want to keep your apartment available and furnished, or should I have your belongings moved to your new room?"

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« Reply #35 on: February 22, 2014, 04:45:01 PM »
"Um," Cain frowned, looking around at the furnished apartment that had come this way.  He hadn't selected anything in it, though it was tastefully decorated.  Other than the potplants, nothing really belonged to him.  Still, was it wise to give up a secondary place to come to?

Yes, it was wise.  Vomas knew where he lived so it wasn't exactly a hideout or secret location.  Also, it would be a sign of good faith that he would dedicate himself to Vomas' offer.  Whatever that was.

"I bought this place furnished, so I might as well sell it furnished.  I don't really care about the furniture, really.  You can stick me in one of your flash rooms at the hotel, if you like," Cain said, then grinned because he felt like he was being cheeky.  "I do want to manage my own money, though," he said, the smile evaporating.  As a donor, everything had been managed for him on his behalf, to be dished out to him when he was out of contract.  He'd got it all early when he left, a huge payout that afforded him this apartment in fact, and even though he didn't really know what to do with it other than stick it in a bank, he still liked the independence it offered him.  If he had no way of leaving, then he wouldn't feel free.
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Shan: I take what is mine and what is yours

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« Reply #36 on: February 22, 2014, 06:45:05 PM »
"You'll have a bank and savings account, then. You can decide what you want where." He'd meant it earlier when he'd said he didn't want a pet in Cain. If he had, he would've given him a small allowance and made sure everything of importance came from him, and he'd make sure Cain knew it, too. But their relationship would be different - special - and he wanted Cain to know that.

A short time later, everything regarding Cain's move had been sorted out and though he'd considered staying, he didn't have a legitimate reason to. He did have other business to attend to, and it would only be a night before Cain joined him at the casino.

When he left the building and went to the car that waited for him, there was a distinct spring to his step. Only as he caught his driver's look of surprise in the rear-view mirror did he realize he'd been whistling, too.