Sam carefully thought over her words as Jake's statement was not false, he had been a shit sire. For the most part and he was not all to blame, Sam could be difficult to put it politely. He didn't know and it was painful to talk about, it made her feel unworthy in her clan. It wasn't the first time she realized she was different than the rest of the clan over the years. Still holding Jakes gaze, speaking slowly and unable to hide the shame in her eye's.
"I'm not innocent either Jake. You... we're not prepared for me," unable to hold his gaze now, "Not even my own parents were prepared for me." Shaking her head still looking downward.
"I was born with a severe dopamine deficiency, and my brain is also deficient in sending neurological signals. It has plagued me my entire life. No parent wants something to be wrong with their child." She stopped scared to go on for a moment
After hearing he didn't have the best relationship with a vampire who raised him, he needed to know this about Sam. Hiding it would only hinder them going forward, unsure of how Jake would take the information. Sam needed to push through it was the only way.
"I had also had severe depression in my pre-teens till I was twenty-two, I had it somewhat under control. When you sired me I had to stop taking my medication even though it was a lower dose, you didn't know." Her voice devoid of emotion as she continued.
"I'm not a fledge you would have picked to make... I'm nothing like the Ventrue clan. To be fair I look back now and I feel as if I took a lot your freedom that night. I sometimes wished you would have put that metal rod through my heart." She was a mixture of feelings, shame, regret, sadness and burden to him.