It was a week before Murphy felt ready to venture out of the estate and face those he needed to. Jeanne, Royce and Hugh had been taking it in turns to train him throughout that time, or simply supervise his feeding... their various techniques and enthusasm for the task differed. Murphy had seen Charon a few times over the week and the young fledgling's confidence had grown as they tested out his abilities which were far beyond any other fledgling at that point which Charon had come across.
Murphy had decided to go to Ben first, telling himself it was because he needed his spare keys, but in truth he believed Ben might... might... be more understanding, less emotional. Less likely to want to keep him there with him. He missed his friend, but was worried about what was to come. He'd run over different scenarios in his head multiple times, each one different and probably all wrong. It had taken some gentle urging from Jeanne to prompt him to actually go rather than just mull it over. She knew he needed people around him who he had a proper bond with and he trusted her judgement.
When Murphy had got his phone back from Charon he'd scrolled through the messages the patriach had written - vague, shutting down any questions, stating simply that he had a task for Murphy.
Some task.
Come to grips with the fact you're dead and your sire is now out of mental reach. Easy peasy.
Murphy sent Ben a short text:
I need to see you tonight, you at home? x
He was already in the car by the time Ben replied in the affirmative, sitting back in the comfortable back seat, letting his fingers run over the leather he'd not been in any state to appriciate last time he was in here. Murphy had spent a lot of the past week experiencing things like this, like he'd never felt a soft towel before, well kept leather, smelt the flowers in Charon's conservatory, seen the stars so clearly. And the taste of blood, that was more intense and delicious than he'd ever imagined. His self control was improving, and he was able to pick up on when to stop drinking from a donor by himself now, but there was still that little voice itching at him to have more, to take what he wanted so badly.
The first night he'd awoke at Penbrook, he'd found a pile of new clothes which fitted him well and were in styles he would have chosen - although of a better quality than the shops he would have gone into. Tonight Murphy wore dark denim jeans and a dark red button up shirt over the top of a white t-shirt. HIs sleeves were rolled up to just below the elbows and he wore no jewelry other than his usual watch (after he'd manged to clean all the blood from it). Jeanne had commented that the red of his shirt went well with the new gold in his eyes, which made Murphy a little self-conscious about highlighting the new colour, but the car had already been summoned qand he tried to focus on the compliment, not his own concerns.
"Thank you. I don't know how long I'll be so I'll get a taxi back, you don't need to hang around," Murphy said as the car pulled up to the Luminary. He might regret that decision if he wanted to make a swift exit, but he didn't want someone hanging around waiting for him, then he'd just feel like he needed to rush.
He lingered on the sidewalk for a moment, watching the car drive off, before heading inside and heading to the reception desk.
"Hi, I'm here to see Ben Samson, please," Murphy said with a warm smile at the well-kept man behind the desk, before he turned to move away slightly out of instinct - just in case anyone else came in who wanted to be seen.
As he'd done thousands of times over the past week Murphy mentally reached out to Lazarus, but felt nothing. He couldn't even tell which direction his sire was in any more. That was probably for the best and would help ease that stupid habit. Instead he raised his gaze to admire his surroundings properly for the first time, seeing all the little details, smelling the polish from the desk, the flowers in the vase, the after-shave the human wore. He'd become used to Penbrook, but now he was out in the world there was so much more to feel.