Harm was more than happy to comply with that direction, surrendering to Trick's mouth with a smile. He worked an arm beneath Trick so he could wrap both of his around him, hugging him firmly. The jacket he was wearing was restrictive, its fitted nature allowing very little movement in his arms but it was enough to allow his hands to rove over Trick's back, kneading and massaging as he explored gently. He turned his lower body into Trick's with a sigh of contentment, squeezing his leg between both of his and establishing a delightful rhythm with his hips, hooking his booted foot behind Trick's knee.
The kiss deepened and he lost himself in the sensation of dragging his tongue against Trick's, of tasting and breathing him in as the cool night air washed over them. His groin throbbed with growing urgency as they ground against each other, the blood rushing to make him uncomfortably hard in his jeans. Predictably, Trick began to ease things when they started getting a bit frantic and Harm whimpered into his mouth, frustrated that reality had to intrude.
When they finally managed to separate their mouths and Trick was laying beside him again, panting in time with his own erratic breathing, Harm laughed wearily. "This is beginning to border on cruel," he murmured offhandedly, then cleared his throat, knowing it was time to reciprocate Trick's confession - though his was nowhere near as intense. Harm sighed, wriggling around a little to stop his jacket bunching beneath him, bending the leg farthest from Trick so that his raised knee could sway. He tugged his jeans into a more comfortable position, too, to allow a little more room for his flagging erection. When he stilled, he was flat on his back, staring up at the stars, his fingers resting on their tips atop his chest.
"Okay. So, I was a late starter, compared to most. I arrived at college pretty innocent but with a healthy interest in changing my, er, status. Had my first at eighteen - it was not the magical experience movies promised me it would be!" he declared imperiously, raising a finger and tipping his head slightly towards Trick, "but it did the job. There were a few guys that first year, none were great. Second year I fell in love. His name was Luke. He was big and blond and gorgeous and I had it bad for him. Unfortunately, so did Trevor. His boyfriend," Harm emphasised wryly. He sighed again.
"It went unrequited, we were just friends. Third year, Luke and Trevor disappeared suddenly - the rumour mill said they had a car accident and Trevor died, Luke went back to his folks for care. No-one knew anything certain. I nursed my poor broken heart through the rest of college. Afterwards, I came to the city and made the usual mistakes - hooked up with a few asshole doctors, another nurse and some wardies. Just, generally shat where I ate kinda thing to make my life at the hospital niiiice and awkward," he laughed hollowly.
"When I was twenty-four, I decided I was done with casual stuff, I wanted to try a relationship. I think I managed three? Yeah, three but they only lasted like, a month each before I scared them off with my terrifying discussions of what I wanted in the future." He paused to muse for a moment, wondering if Trick would also make a hasty retreat when he told him what he wanted for his life. Oh well, it had always been his philosophy that if they didn't stay, it wasn't meant to be... no matter how much that hurt. The older he got, the more that stung, though.
"Then I met Adam. He seemed perfect. Everything was wonderful, at first. He was devoted, attentive, told me he loved me within, like, two weeks, which blew me away. My first real boyfriend. First and last. He didn't mind so much that I didn't say I loved him back - no way was I giving my hear away to get broken like with Luke - but things started to change after a month or so. He started asking lots more questions, wanting to know where I was, who I was with, when I'd be home, that sort of thing. Fast forward to four months and he hit me when he didn't like me telling him it was one of his business. Smashed up my face, dislocated my shoulder, scared me shitless."
Harm paused to steady himself, sighing. "I didn't see him for a few weeks, then he called me, wanted to get the stuff he'd left at my place back. Apologised profusely. I thought it was reasonable, so I arranged a time for him to come over but I had one of my wardie friends from work there, just in case. The fucker waited 'til Baz was in the bathroom then attacked me. Baz got rid of him before he did much more than shove some socks in my mouth and rip my clothes but, yeah, I was a bit traumatised after that. No men for a very long time," Harm laughed as he wiped a hand in front of them. His voice was only slightly shaky.
"Then, a couple of months ago, Luke walked back into my life - though it wasn't him. It sounds like a crazy plot from a movie but it turns out, when he disappeared in college, he was kidnapped by some weird facility that did experiments on him. They'd swiss-cheesed his brain too, he didn't really remember me but wanted me to help him remember his life beforehand. I was more than happy to, I mean, this was the guy I'd loved, of course I jumped at the chance to help him!" he laughed again.
"But it hasn't been easy. We got closer and tried to get intimate but he... he's got a shifter arm and anger issues. When we got close to having sex, he got really violent and held me down and of course I freaked the fuck out. Thankfully, he had a flashback before anything bad happened and let me go. He cried, I cried, we sorted it out. We've been seeing each other since then but it hasn't been... satisfying. In multiple ways. He'd come over and we'd do some parallel stuff - because he was scared he'd hurt me - which was sexy and exciting at first but grew frustrating. Then his boss - he works for District Leader Jake McCloud - banned him from coming to Chinatown because of the Kuei-Jin or political reasons, I don't even know," Harm sighed, waving his hand dismissively again.
"It doesn't matter. We were down to coffee or dinner dates whenever our schedules lined up and we could snatch some time together. I haven't even heard from him for, like, three weeks or something. So, Monday night I called him and told him it just wasn't working for me. We can still be friends but I'm done hoping for more. It would never have worked out, anyway. He's not the settling down type - the guy shoved a fucking pen through his hand to demonstrate his insane healing abilities and barely flinched!" Harm exclaimed, lifting his other hand to point to the meat between his thumb and index finger where Luke had stabbed himself.
"He's a machine that has spent most of his time warning me he's a monster and I should stay away from monsters anyway. He's never approved of my interest in knowing more about the supernatural," Harm shrugged. "He wanted to protect me. He's sweet but... we really don't see eye to eye on most stuff so... I was thinking about stuff and decided it was time I faced facts and went for what I wanted." His hand dropped towards Trick's, implying that he was what he wanted, hoping this wasn't the bit where Trick pushed him away and told him everything he'd said was too heavy. His heart fluttered with nervousness as he sought to intertwine their fingers.