"When I was sired," he stated numbly, knowing that he could talk about that, but not entirely sure he would want to. But the mortal looked so interested and he had been rather mean to him. He supposed it was the least he could do.
Kerr\'s gaze shifted away from the eager stare and up to the left corner of the ceiling, as he attempted to recall the events leading up to his embrace. Things... memories... that he hadn\'t contemplated in so long that they were hard to find - even harder to bring to the surface - came to him... but slowly. It took him a full five minutes to get everything in order, to figure out how to lay it out. To decide how best to tell his tale; which he\'d never shared with anyone. Not even those who\'d been a part of it, really.
He didn\'t pay any attention to what Ben did in all that time, though he may have fidgeted or spoken when he began to think that he would get no story; Kerr paid him no mind until he was ready to begin. And when he looked back, those blue eyes were as bright and keen as they had been when he\'d first begun selecting and constructing his thoughts into a coherent order. So he simply began, his voice sombre in tone and thick with the Irish accent he\'d begun to lose a century ago, when he\'d said goodbye to his homeland more permanently.
"I was born on the first day of the new year, sixteen hundred and six, the only son of Donahue and Bridget Galvin. They were... umpteenth generation Irish, noble and proud that their line had resisted Viking and Norman invasions... mainly because their lands were too out of the way to be noticed. Oh, they were just grand for the sheep we ran, the flax we grew, there in our home of Killarney, but really we were just lucky that we never became a target for invasion," he drawled, his gaze falling on the candle once more, teeth biting at his stud for a few moments. He then waved a dismissive hand, as if casting this information aside.
"We were what you might call nobles; employing people to work the land, fairly safe in our situation. We weren\'t the only well to do family in the area, but we were respected. I remember my father as a good businessman; he could talk anyone around, whether they were intent on trouble or making a deal. He had a loud, contagious laugh and the annoying habit of smacking people hard on the shoulder when he\'d had too much to drink," Kerr said, his lips twisting into a fond smile as he recalled this fact. It was really all he could remember, after so long. With a shake of his head, he then looked at Ben once more, his expression growing troubled.
"I was born at the time that England began to stake her claim on our country and there was dissent while I grew up... but the political stuff didn\'t touch our hearts nearly as much as the frequent deaths did. For as long as anyone could remember, people died mysteriously in our village. Young, old, pretty, ugly... it didn\'t much matter. There was no rhyme nor reason to it, just one day you\'d wake up and there\'d be a corpse by a roadside or something. There were talks of curses and unGodliness of course; but the source was far more tangible and a lot nastier. Angus Sully. He was the most foul, evil son of a bitch that ever walked this earth, and an immortal. Not that anybody knew that then. He did some truly foul things in his time - and to this day I have no idea how long that time even was. I only know when it ended, because I helped do it."
His jaw had a visible tightness to it as it lifted and he looked down his aquiline nose at the mortal, as if expecting retribution. Or perhaps a question; but he didn\'t give the other the chance to ask one.
"In 1612," he began, then faltered.
No, don\'t talk about them, he asked about your siring, what it was like.
"Uh... I meant in 1626," he corrected, offering an apologetic smile as his gaze slipped briefly to the couch that he\'d suddenly gripped. He forced his fingers to uncurl and looked back at Ben, his composure slightly shaken but his determination apparent, "a child by the name of Sawyl Loman was born." At the mere mention of his name, Kerr\'s face lit up in a smile, his eyes glistening with pride and a love that he couldn\'t hide. Such was the way whenever he thought of his beloved, his sire.
"He was small and beautiful and as much the darling of the village as his family was reviled. Possibly he was loved so much because he\'d come from some enormous trouble and scandal - though it wasn\'t his fault how and what he was born to," the vampire added hastily, defensively. "Anyway, when he was eleven, he still had the look of a chubby, happy eight year old. Truly, he looked an angel. Angus Sully coveted that beauty, that innocence, and he took him one night and locked Wyl in his home. It was a fortress, would never have been penetrable - had anyone even known. The countryside was scoured for a week, but no sign of the bairn was found. The child\'s family were distraught, mothers in the region began keeping their children in their bedrooms, fathers began carrying weapons and talking of revenge. But no-one knew against what... and it had always happened. Nobody said it, but everyone knew that soon they\'d find him, white as a ghost and twice as dead, behind a barn or floating in one of the lakes... with no explanation, just like all the rest had been found. Except this time... we never did."
Kerr\'s deep brown gaze became pained as he relived the horror of the situation. No wonder he\'d pushed this story from his memory...
"Unspeakable things were done to the child in that tower; sordid, horrible acts. And then Angus decided to sire the child and curse him to remain forever at his side. Forever to be tortured. But Sawyl was as cunning as he was terrified by that stage. It took him a year, but he eventually convinced Angus that they would need some help or... some money or... something," he frowned and shook his head, indicating that he had never got the full story out of Sawyl but that he didn\'t feel it really mattered. "Whatever it was and for whatever reason, Sawyl chose me. Might have been for my lands, my money... or maybe just because I came from a trusted name, had a good relationship with everyone in the village. Had good connections. Whatever it was, Sawyl came to me and lured me to that demon\'s home. He didn\'t tell me his full plan - he was too small, you see, too small to drink and make me on his own. He needed Angus\' help to make me; and then he needed my help to kill Angus."
His face fell into a troubled scowl then, as that walk through the misty rain, in the pitch black of that long lost night came back to him. He couldn\'t remember enough of it; couldn\'t recall what Wyl had said to get him to the keep in the first place, what Angus had said in greeting; nor even how it all transpired. Ben would no doubt be unhappy with this, but it was the truth. He looked apologetically at the mortal.
"I\'m sorry, but I don\'t really remember how it all went. Just that it was fast; I walked in and then Sawyl was upon me, at my neck. I... fell down. There in the entranceway, I believe. It was... fast, because I was scared. It was like someone was playing a fyfe right in my ears... it was loud and dizzying. I know being drunk from can be beautiful, but it wasn\'t for me. My heart was racing so hard and Sawyl had fasted specially for it, that he took everything he could accept, as fast as was possible. I\'ve since learned that it was because it was so fast, that it hurt so badly. Well, I went into shock and I passed out. Not very exciting, eh? I recall that I woke up drinking - it tasted horrible, I tried not to, but I was forced onto Sawyl\'s wrist by Angus, until I\'d got most of it back and in me - and then I passed out again. When next I rose, I was dying and... ohhhhh fuck I remember that... hurt!" he chuckled, giving Ben a wry grin as a finger pointing downwards at the blue velvet of the seat emphasised his final two words.
The jocular tone and the smile faded as his thoughts turned inward again. The frown returned and he stared moodily at the candle. "Dying hurt. I remember that. But... it passed," he finished softly, and said no more as he stared into the flickering light... and the past.