Kerr\'s eyes scrunched shut and his forehead drifted slowly towards the table before him, hands clenched with an iron grip between his knees. His mind was whirling, terror fluttering in his chest. Like Mandy, he\'d picked up on the comment about lives hanging in the balance, he just didn\'t understand why she didn\'t seem to care. Did she think this was a joke? He was beginning to feel ill... and he didn\'t even think that that was within the realm of possibility for him. He stopped just short of smacking his head on the hard surface before his face, staring unseeingly at the whiteness of it, shoulders tensed as he struggled not to speak, not to cry out. He couldn\'t look at her, couldn\'t look at the judge. He didn\'t want to see her die before him, he didn\'t want to know. He couldn\'t bear that she was doing this, he couldn\'t process the fact that he\'d walked her down this path.
Stupid, stupid, stupid, you\'re fucking stupid, stupid, stupid, you\'re fucking...