((Reserved))
She was standing cowering against the wall, keeping as close to it as she could as she pulled her shawl as tightly around her body as she could. Her bright red hair was covered by the dull cloth and it shaded her pale, drawn face as well as keeping out some of the cold of the growing darkness. It had been a week since Ridley had thrown her out, but the had been a bad week for the girl and it showed in her face. Despite being pregnant she had lost weight; her face was thin and her arms like sticks. And the fear she was feeling was clear in her face and her heavily bagged eyes.
After living rough for the past week Mia knew how fortunate she had been not to have anything worse happen to her than being rained on. When she had left Ridley’s Mia had forgotten many things in her rush, including her small amount of savings and so she had nothing to get another room; she hadn’t wanted to go back there. She had still been going to work, arriving a little earlier to wash off the feeling of the streets and stayed as late as she could, but she knew she couldn’t live like this for long. She had been feeling so terrible she couldn’t eat, she just couldn’t swallow down the constant lump in her throat and if she did manage to eat then it just came straight back up again.
Her dark eyes were fixed on an alleyway across the street and as she watched the dark area her fingers fiddled with the cloth, pulling it more tightly against the cold. She had heard that this was where she should come to get rid of her problem, but now she was having serious doubts. It had been scary enough trying to find out where to go, actually going through with it was a completely different matter though. Abusing her own body and killing her child; no woman wanted that.
The teenager lifted a finger to her lips and lightly chewed on her nail. She felt like the people walking past were watching her, judging her, as though all of her problems were on display for the world to see. She didn’t want to be in this situation and had no idea how it had come about. She just wanted to go back to how things had been just a few weeks ago. But now Ridley hated her and she had a…baby…growing inside her. She took in a deep, shuddering breath and tightened her fingers around the small pouch she had in the pocket of her dress with the money she had earned this month, hoping that it would be enough. She didn’t know how much this person would charge for his services and desperately wished she didn’t have to find out.
From her place she could see the edge of a back door in the alleyway, that was where she had to go. She just had to work up the nerve to go over there and tell them what she wanted. There was no sign of what happened in that small building on display, it wasn’t a healer’s shop, she wasn’t even sure if the person she was going to was at all medically trained. For all she knew it could be some old woman who had a lifetime of experience, although the people she had asked had said ‘he’. Mia had no idea what they would do to her; she had heard that if it was early enough they could give her some herbs and make it go away, but she didn’t know what to expect if it was too late. How late was too late? She didn’t even know how long a woman was pregnant before she gave birth.
Then she could go back to Ridley. Tell him that it was gone. Pray that he would believe that she had never slept with Dagger. Then it would all go back to how it had been, perfect.
Her fingers lifted to the necklace she wore from the money pouch, lightly fingering the silver charm, the symbol of her belief and a reminder of her parents.
“Adora, please forgive and protect me,” she murmured, quietly praying to the Goddess, hoping that she wouldn’t be angry with this. She had given her this blessing, but at this time it wasn’t a blessing for Mia, it was a curse and the young red head still couldn’t work out what she had done wrong to deserve this. Maybe Adora believed that she was willingly living in sin with Ridley, but that sin was the only part of her life with Ridley that Mia hated and she was never willing to do that. But if that sin was what had caused this then maybe she deserved what she was going through. Maybe she should have resisted his advances more, just taken whatever he would have done to her. But she hadn’t and now she was here.
But despite having told herself she had made her final decision Mia just couldn\'t seem to make her feet move across the street and towards the alley way. She felt pinned to the ground, unable to go forwards and unwilling to go back.