He\'d come home angry after visiting with Kerr. He hadn\'t told Arles the truth about where he\'d gone, wanting to keep his visitations with Kerr a secret. He honestly didn\'t know why he\'d bothered, for Kerr couldn\'t be bothered understanding the fact that Ben needed to be with someone more stable than he ever was.
He offered to buy me a car. It went from being offered a brand new car to having his apartment keys flung at me while that look was on his face. What the fuck happened?
Arles\' name had been mentioned, that was what happened. So much for Kerr being understanding. The Irishman had told Ben not so long ago that he was better off with Arles. Now that his situation had changed, Ben was supposed to dump Arles and go running to him? Hardly. Ben wasn\'t going to use Arles that way, he loved him (though wasn\'t in love with him, but it made the sex easier, to care about Arles the way he did, grateful for everything the blonde had done for him, with no expectations for personal gain).
So, it had been a week after Ben had showered and hid his original secret from Arles, seven nights after he\'d pushed towards some sharing with he and Arles, in order to keep the knowledge of Kerr at bay. Now, he was going to spill the truth - only he was going to do it with a slight delay in place.
He bypassed the elevators to go up the stairs, and realised there was only one hour left before daylight crept into the sky. Was one hour enough to reveal to Arles the truth and be able to sleep at his side? Would his sire kick him out knowing that Ben might not find a safe haven from the dawn\'s rays?
He found Arles in the bedroom of the penthouse, their bedroom, reading a book, and so he sat on the edge of the bed, not snuggling up to his other sire because he knew he stank of Kerr - what with being so close to him all night.
The best way to say it was to say it straight off, before his courage waned.
"I bumped into Kerr tonight," he began, a half truth, because he\'d bumped into Kerr last week, and had gone to visit him tonight, but Arles didn\'t know that. "He\'s living on his own in the city."
There, it was out. He\'d seen Kerr. It was up to Arles to say something now. Initially, Ben had spoken to the wall in front of him. Now he turned to look at the platinum blonde to watch him for his reaction and response.