(After interlude: \'Reluctant Allies\')Kerr wasn\'t quick enough to look up from the keys he was staring intently at before he was hugged, but it was a relief. "Ben," he sighed huskily, sagging against his beloved and giving up on needing to find the apartment key. Standing upright had been the thing that was taking all of his concentration and willpower up \'til that point, it could have been half an hour before he\'d found the right key to let himself in.
The drive home had been horrific, to say the least. Leaving the mansion, he\'d realised that he actually wasn\'t too stable in the driving department but, because there wasn\'t a huge amount of traffic around in the suburbs, he was able to take it steadily and avoid problems. When he headed for the city, however, that changed and he began the stop and start dance that had eventually got him home; whenever he saw lights, he pulled over to the curb and switched on his hazards.
He\'d hit the gutter more than once in this way - and rear-ended a parked car that he hadn\'t seen until too late - but, apart from some scraped tyres, fenders and bumpers, he and the car were alright (there\'d been a couple of breathtaking screeches of tyres behind him and some deafening horn-blowing that had shredded his already-frayed nerves of course, but nothing had come of any of it... luckily). He\'d been ready to give up once his trip entered its second hour and he\'d called home to have Ben come rescue him, but no answer told him that he\'d simply have to persevere, so he had.
"
God, I missed you, I love you
so much," he crooned, finally having the wherewithal to squeeze his arms - which had been pinned by the embrace - around Ben\'s middle and hug him back. His words were slightly slurred by exhaustion and relief, his smile dopey, his hair wildly untidy from him anxiously running his hands through it so much. He couldn\'t tell if his sudden reliance upon his lover to support him caused the fledgling to stumble at all, for he was too unbalanced internally as it was - everything was always shifting, now that he\'d stood up - but he was inexpressably grateful for the support.
"I got... no... I\'m dizzy," he confessed solemnly, his accent thick in his weakened state, "\'nd\'I think I need t\'feed t\'set m\'self t\'rights but... erm... I can barely
hear or see anyt\'ing, so I\'ll need you to... help me." His eyes were closed as he rested his chin on Ben\'s shoulder, feeling soothed by his presence and awash with love but still... erratic.
If he fed from a mortal right now, the talents inside him that he\'d nurtured for four centuries would do him no good, for he was reduced to a very basic level, worse even than a fledgling, for his senses were cut off and not functioning normally. He felt imbecilic and helpless, unable to even secure his own sustenance due to his reduced state; it was the first time in a
long time he\'d been this vulnerable and although he was glad it happened in front of Ben, he hated that it was happening at
all. He was used to being in control, the sire, the one in charge; yes, he
hated this sudden role reversal passionately.