There was something in the way Ichabod looked at him and answered about the shower that stopped Ben from moving toward it as soon as he had permission. He misinterpreted Ichabod\'s look entirely. He thought the other was greedy for his physical self, for what else was sexier to a vampire than a well-built torso smeared with blood? However, he got a sensation of Ichabod\'s thoughts rather than the actual words, for he wasn\'t actively scanning the other\'s mind. Considering the way they both were right now, clarity wasn\'t exactly at the forefront. Ichabod\'s gaze looked as wild as Ben felt. He thought he knew what was going to be asked of him, and he was surprised that things were going in that direction so quickly. He\'d thought Ichabod would degrade him first by making him do stupid things in public, rather than wanting sex.
When the request came, it was so different to what Ben was expecting that his mind stumbled over it for a moment, hearing nothing but garble until his brain caught up with his ears.
Ben would\'ve given Ichabod anything freely, absolutely anything, except this. Themba-
don\'t think of his name
oh my god
he drank from me he drank
I thought I was going to die
I called for help from Kerr
in my head Kerr heard
he drank from me
I don\'t want him
to drink from me
\'What?\' he almost asked, it was on the tip of his tongue, but he knew what, so there was no point asking. Out of all the things Ichabod could\'ve demanded from him, the other vampire had stumbled upon the one thing that caused Ben real issue. Why oh why oh why had he broken that stupid, fucking mug full of blood?
Because it hurt you to talk about it
That past that you do your best to pretend never happened
That time in New York that messed you up so bad
Because you weren\'t in control
And he drank from you
And so you held on too tight to the mug
And now you\'re facing exactly what made you break that mug in the first place
Oh, it was ironic, it was insane how twisted this night was becoming. It was almost a circle. It was what he\'d demanded Ichabod do, last week, to use him, to make demands of him no matter how uncomfortable it might make Ben. He could stomach public humiliation, he didn\'t mind the idea of sexually playing around with Ichabod, he\'d readied himself for an intense version of Truth or Dare, but he hadn\'t figured Ichabod would want his blood.
He opened his mouth, to say what he didn\'t know, but what came out of his mouth surprised and scared him more than words could describe.
"Okay."
His voice was remarkably steady, though soft. He\'d expected to hear a quaver in it, but there was nothing. He\'d always managed to keep his voice steady, no matter the turmoil within. Ben was frozen to the spot. If Ichabod wanted to drink from him, he would likely have to come over to him and do it, or lead him somewhere. Maybe Ben\'s legs would work, if he was beckoned, but...
He had no more time to think, because Ichabod had heard his consent and was now reacting to it.