Her words had the effect of sobering his anger, his frustration. Damien shifted himself closer to her, feeling her discomfort, her fright and worry. With a practiced maneuver, he slipped his arm behind her neck and she slipped into his embrace, still holding her arms to her body, her gaze cast downward and away from him. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders, holding her close to his body, his cheek returned to the top of her head. With a hesitant hand she gripped onto his shirt, a small gesture of remaining present with him despite her feelings. Too many nights they had sat like this for long minutes, wordlessly attempting to comfort each other when their thoughts and fears became too much for the other to handle. Practicing being present.
The thought of losing her, of facing her death washed over him like a storm surge and threatened to drown him. He breathed deeply with the unconscious effort to loosen the vice-like grip on his ribs and chest. Images of how it might happen flashed through his mind like a film and turned into a downward spiral he didn't want to descend into. What would it feel like to miss her warmth, her laugh? To lose her presence in his nights? In his bed? How would Delilah take her absence? His fingers pulled Rachel closer and Damien put his lips to her forehead again, trying to chase the thoughts away by squeezing his eyes shut.
Come back to me, her words echoed in him somewhere, a memory of another sad time together in bed when Lucretia had interrupted something tender between them.
Damien opened his eyes and placed soft kisses repeatedly on her skin, enjoying the soft warmth of her.
She was with him and they were Present together.
He rubbed her arm to reconfirm their placement together on the couch, his care and need for her. His tone was gentle and weary, with a lingering attempt to be confident for her. "We will figure this out together, I promise." He wrapped his other arm around her and pulled her closer, comforted by the way her breath feathered against his Adam's apple and collar bones. "But not tonight. We should approach this with clear heads, yes?"
She gave him a nod before looking up with a tired, doe-eyed, guilt-ridden expression. He couldn't help but kiss the bridge of her nose then, eliciting a small, sad smile from her.