Our Jess hadn’t never been the type to do what he was told - but when he was instructed to lie down, he complied. He didn’t shy away from the needle, offering out the arm nearest Apep without ceremony or reluctance. While many might’ve averted their gaze from the injection, Jesse watched - turning his focus away only after the venom had been plunged all the way into his system.
There was no transition between sobriety and euphoria. It happened quick. First there was one; then the other. He could see what he thought might be electric currents flickering in the air, along with every near-at-hand cell and atom, swirling in a kaleidoscope of colorful prisms. There were remnants of the normalcy he’d been accustomed to, sure - but nothing was as it had been before. Even Jess had to acknowledge the beauty of it.
It wasn’t long before those churning chroma took on new shapes; shapes that soon bled together to create one mass that Jess could only comprehend as reptilian scales. A serpent, mayhap; too massive to take in at once. He could be miles away, and it still wouldn’t be far enough to see it all. Like the vastness of the sea, impossible to fully perceive with the human eye. Not even with drug-induced augmentation. Not even from space. But he could get closer - could zoom in on those opaline mirrors and peer inside. He reckoned, if he did, he might find the new worlds the snake demon had mentioned before.
Instead, what he found when he extended a hand and plucked and tugged at the lamina before him, were bits and pieces of his own life - cast in the shapes of memories and dreams. In one, he found his mother as she had been; pawing at some new beau as she passed drunkenly through the front door of their shabby little home, with no regard for the young son who sat within gawking distance. In another, he saw her again, but only in likeness; acting how he imagined a mother ought, imparting sweet words and nurturing affections. Such a pretty little fantasy.
He saw and smelt Alabama trees and soil. Saw fights, victorious and failing. Saw cars; some in the shop, and some he’d stolen. Saw joyrides. Games of chicken. The boys back home. He saw himself and Boone, duking out some petty argument until he’d wound up pinned against a wall and things became heated in new ways. Not a fantasy, but real.
... And then, he saw Boone’s face when he was disavowed and deemed not right. It was an expression that brought about the end of his sequence of memories and wishes - and invited, in place, the nightmare he’d deluded himself into believing was at the pinnacle of all thrills.
He’d been there, in his mind, for that first change; he’d even tried to stop it. He couldn’t then, and he couldn’t now. Not as mama scrambled for the door, too drunk and slow to escape. Not as the carpets and walls were painted red with blood and gore. Not as her desperate mewling tapered out as the life in her drained away. Not as he gorged and gorged, until there was nothing recognizable left.
As Jesse lie upon Apep’s futon with unfocused eyes, reliving what could arguably be the most defining moment of his life, he broke into a cold sweat. An unhinged smile spread slow throughout the unfolding of his vision; at odds with a welling up of tears that remained unshed. With each fitful intake of breath, his chest upsurged spasmodically - until, eventually, he quieted and stilled.