Corruptible. What an interesting way of looking at him. It came from much farther left field than Lazarus. In a way the comparison to Lazarus was expected, even though it had shocked him regardless. But 'corruptible' felt oddly worse.
When he'd first met Kerr years ago he'd been out hunting for a vampire most likely to sire him. He'd sought immortality. Was that seeking out corruption? And when he'd woken up in the desert to come face to face with another person using a copy of his face and body... he'd run away from that and gone to New York, hooking up with Sotiris, a powerful Ancient. Not really a corruption there. It had come after, with Themba. Had he been corrupted then? He'd played a dangerous game but no, he hadn't felt corrupted. And after returning home, Lazarus had rediscovered him. It had only been sexual though Lazarus seemed to think it had been more meaningful. Had Ben been corrupted then? He didn't think so. And then when he'd gone to Charon to play the part of Kerr. Was that a corruption? Of Kerr's memory, yes, but... Ben himself hadn't felt corrupted or corruptible. He'd been groomed by Charon to become an Ambassador for the Sacrament until the roleplay had taken them both over in the last remaining months before Kerr's return.
So where was it, that Kerr believed he was corruptible? It could only come from one person. One name. Saraekiel.
"No," he said finally, after a drawn out pause. "I'm not corruptible. That's your excuse for me, maybe. It's not why the powerful are drawn to me. I put myself in front of them, sometimes consciously and sometimes not, and generally they're interested in me because I don't shy away. Maybe not too many people look them in the eye, I don't know what it is, but it's not corruption. You only think that because of... because I call what's inside me my darkness, and 'dark' is what he is. But no, I'm not corruptible. I think it's more the other side. Corrupting."