Ben kept his head averted, even though he imagined the blonde ancient's eyes were on him. It was his turn to question after all. Ben's anxiety spiked and he started saying a calming mantra in his head, careful to block his thoughts from the other vampires in the room.
Lazarus stared at the young vampire for a long moment, not remorseful about what had transpired between them - it was the way of the way of the world after all, the strong took advantage of the weak - but regretful that he'd bothered because it had led to this nonsense.
"Ben," he said, his voice soothing, like a lover. "You and I have been intimate before. More than once, on more than one occasion, and we even shared mortals in our bed between us. Is this true?"
Humiliation flooded through Ben at Lazarus' opening question. The blood baggie he'd drunk from earlier tonight revealed his embarrassment by pinking his cheeks, though slightly.
"Yes," he said brusquely, only because he didn't want the question repeated. He found the strength to add: "Years ago."
"Ah, but there were years between the first time and the second, and now we're at the third," Lazarus said. "You kept coming back to me, didn't you, Ben?"
Ben finally looked Lazarus' way, to answer him. "And each time was a mistake."
"But it would always take you a while with me before you reached that conclusion. I was the bad boy you were drawn to, you came to me every time you left your sire Kerr Galvin, the ex-Luminary and by all accounts a good man."
Ben swallowed, uncertain how to argue. Lazarus hadn't asked a question.
"And none of those times did you express or state your willingness to have sex with me, yet that's what happened. We had sex. Or did I rape you all those other times, too?"
Ben shook his head. "Just because - "
"You can't just shake your head. You have to say yes or no. Did I rape you every other time I had you in bed?"
Ben was livid. His gaze fell to Kerr but he felt too guilty about his past that he looked next at Murphy, but Jake was right there so he looked at Lisa-Joe and she was just another problem so he looked back at Sabrina, but he was too ashamed to keep his eyes on her.
"Ben?" Lazarus prompted.
"No! Fuck!" Ben burst out, then was mortified at his own reaction. He had to take control. "It doesn't matter about all those other times when I was willing. Just because I fucked you once doesn't mean I'll come back for seconds."
A tiny smile played around Lazarus' mouth. "But you did come back for seconds. That's my point. And every time before we had sex, I would talk you into it. That was our thing. I don't remember you saying 'no, I do not want this' or anything like that. I don't remember you fighting me off, or yelling, or doing anything other than talking to me - like you always did. It was a way to excuse yourself from cheating on your lover, isn't that right, Ben? I didn't pin you down the entire time, did I? Because I didn't have to."
Ben stared at the floor.
"So you told Jake it was rape, but it wasn't really, was it? At worst it was a misunderstanding."
"No," Ben said, his voice trembling. He glared at Lazarus. "You made a mistake when you told me I was the first person you'd raped, and I'm not even talking about Jake. The Oligarchy kept good records and I had a chance to go over them since staying with Charon. You've done this before. And much worse."
Lazarus pulled a face. "We're talking about me and you, Ben."
"You're the one who pulled our past into this. Did you forget that you were trying to make me kill a human to harden my heart? Did you forget I watched you murder them after I refused to drain them dry? Did you forget about Dom and Michael? You invaded their house and raped them over the course of three nights. The Oligarchy had to institutionalise one of them and clean up after your mess. You're a serial fucking menace and I hope you fucking die."
Charon made a soft exclamation. He nudged Jeanne again - this was an amazing twist to the plot! He hadn't realised that Ben had changed his mind about wanting Lazarus dead. He didn't agree with Ben's change of heart, but it made for excellent viewing.
Lazarus and Ben glared at one another.
"I'm only on trial for raping you, Ben, and you've just proved to everyone here how you like to muddy the waters and give answers to questions that aren't asked. When I did all of those things you're accusing me of, it was during a different regime, when I was allowed to throw my weight around and cover-ups were a thing! Their trials were way more barbaric. You whine about how this cunt arrested you after you were "raped"," Lazarus used air quotes with his fingers, "but the Oligarchy did much worse to you just for being an unregistered pet, so instead of digging up every bit of dirt you have on everyone, just answer the fucking question!"
"What question?" Ben snapped.
"Is there a chance that you communicated to me that you wanted me to fuck you?"
"What? No."
"So you didn't bring up Jake? You didn't imply that you and I having sex would bother him?"
"What? Um..." Ben floundered.
"You knew that he and I were in a relationship. It's no secret you can't stand him. What did I say to you, when you brought him up?"
"Um... you said... you said he wouldn't care."
"And that's when you decided to change tactic. That's when you decided to call it rape. Because that was something Jake couldn't ignore."
"What? No! That's not the reason why." Ben said, but now that he was looking at all those faces staring at him, at the doubt he imagined he could see in some of their eyes, he turned his face away and looked at Sabrina.
"I'm done with him. He can go," Lazarus said softly.
Ben didn't need to be dismissed a second time. He reeled away and moved to the back room of the theatre, away from prying eyes.