Roche was doing her best to keep herself from being the moping, morose bride she wanted to be, but it wasn\'t easy. Especially when she\'d already had the queen asking her (oh, horror of horrors) if she and her husband had consummated their marriage. What was she to say to something like that? All she\'d been able to manage was a stammered negative before she\'d been drilled on what sort of behaviours the two of them had been displaying. With colour high on her cheeks, she\'d asserted that she\'d tried on her wedding night and had certainly made herself available to her husband but he simply wasn\'t interested.
The rest of the discussion had gone over and around her swirling head and she hardly remembered how it had gone, though she knew the queen hadn\'t been happy. Not with her so much as her son, but upset nevertheless and it had given Roche no more understanding of what was going on in her husband\'s world either.
To occupy herself, she\'d taken to spending time with her sisters-in-law. They were only two years younger than her but they were the same age as her brother, Didi, and so she could relate. Somewhat, anyway. She and the twins had some etiquette lessons together and they all agreed that none of them needed them, but that was about the only things they agreed on. Roche had managed to convince the girls to come out onto the grounds and kick a padded leather ball around with her today but the other princesses had been disinterested at the start and completely unskilled. When they\'d expressed a desire to go and play with their dollies, Roche had conceded defeat and farewelled them with a smile that had failed as soon as she\'d flopped down onto the thick grass, beside the ball.
She missed her brother, who would gladly have played with her for hours. She missed her whole family. She missed her old life. Hell, she missed having a life. With a deep, sad sigh, she\'d pulled her pretty skirts up to her thighs (they weren\'t practical for kicking balls anyway but she\'d toed her shoes off) so that her long, tanned legs might benefit from the sun\'s touch. She closed her eyes and tipped her head back as she leaned back on her hands as well, trying to empty her mind of angst and just concentrate on how nice it was to be alone, in the sun, on soft grass that might even be back at her home in France, not too far from her family and everything that had made her happy.