Kerr was beginning to realise just how much Ben had grown up in the past years and to mourn that, too. Looking at his fledgling sitting at the table with his arms folded like a petulant child only exasperated the sire, making him wonder why he was bothering and whether any of it was worth it.
His own blood echoing back at him from the body of someone he cared deeply about told him it was worth it, though. He\'d already sacrificed his dignity (though he had managed to stop himself from pointing blame at Ben for starting their discussion in the first place) by begging Ben to return, it surely couldn\'t get any worse.
The Irishman was feeling weary from all the talking and the chasing - and he still hadn\'t even called his pilot! - so he took a moment to find another chair to sit across from Ben, leaned back into it with his legs crossed, right ankle resting atop his left thigh.
This had all gone wrong about the time he\'d told Ben too much information about why he\'d sired him, on reflection. He really did have to limit everything to the most minimal answers possible, or Ben\'s fragile ego, or mind, or soul - or whatever the hell it was causing all this tiptoeing - would pucker up and prepare to kiss him good-bye. Any sign of trouble, Ben\'s strategy was to cut and run. Not only was it immature but it sucked royally, because Kerr was never going to be able to relax around his fledgling - not until he grew up a little, anyway.
"Ben," he stated calmly, much like a doctor would open with a patient\'s name when she was about to tell said patient that they had terminal cancer, "I don\'t want misunderstandings between us. I also don\'t want you upset. I do want to train you and I do want to have back in the city near me for that to happen, but beyond that, I have no demands. You need time and space to figure that out - I get it. I\'m currently living in a very, very large house by the beach where you are welcome to stay and where we will only have to have minimal contact, if that\'s what you want. You have your car, we can bring it to the house so you have freedom. The house is big enough that you can have your own floor if you want it," he smiled, trying to sound encouraging.
"If you really do want to have no contact with me, that\'s also fine. I can assign another vampire to train you, someone good, who you\'ll work well with. I can buy you somewhere to live, you can stay in our apartment - your name\'s on that lease and it\'s legally part yours anyway, plus it\'s completely set up to be daylight proof - or you can work on getting your own place, if you\'re too proud to accept money from me. I really don\'t mind," he promised sincerely, lowering his right foot to the floor and leaning towards his fledgling, elbows resting on his spread knees and hands clasped loosely in the space between.
"If you don\'t want to see me again after we get back to the city, I\'ll accept that. I\'ll worry about you and I\'ll want to protect you, but if you\'re determined to do it on your own, I\'ll also respect that and leave you to it. I just want you to feel good about yourself and to be able to pick your life up and make sense of it. However you do that, it\'s fine with me... but please, just give me a hint about which way you\'re leaning so that I can begin making arrangements one way or the other." He blinked once more as he stared levelly at Ben, finally falling silent.